I said I wasn't going to.
I broke, I messaged people.
I made my bestfriend upset.
I fucked things up with my crush.
He read it. Both of them did.
I let Z because I wanted at least one person to read it.
Then J sent me this depressing paragraph. I reacted differently, so he got curious and I said, "I'm Megan. And I have my own book of depressing thoughts."
J being... Well J. Asked to see it, I caved in.
So I told him.
And now guess what. J and Z have started their own books. Z a little more violent and straight to the point. And J, he's in it for the long run.
I upset Z.... So I told him to vent. He didn't.
I still have feelings for J, but fuck it. I'm giving up on that ship.
It was funny, Z and I were talking today and out of the blue he says "We should hook you up with J."
I told him, "Been there, tried that."
He went into this whole, "why" thing. I said "Because he has M, and it's what I do"
Oh.. My famous motto is coming out "Friends before myself." J and M are good for eachother. And I'm accepting that ^~^
I'm going to bed I'm tired...
Of living
