Endless Sacrifice

Chapter 3

I crumpled the letter in my hands and slammed my fists against the wall, it vibrated violently beneath my hand. I paced around my room, muttering incoherently under my breath. The fury pulsated through me making my vision blurry, I wanted to annihilate Oliver Wood with every fiber of my being. I wanted scream at Melody for marrying him. My heart ached painfully as I thought about the irrevocable decision she had made. How could she do this to me? How could she marry someone else? Her letter was written so beautifully yet it still felt so heartless, so cruel. I didn't want to believe the words. I couldn't believe she had returned her promise ring to me, I never wanted that. I loved her more than anyone else in the world, she was the only person I truly loved. Now I was being faced with having to continue my life without her. What would be the point of living at all?

I groaned as I slammed my fists into the wall again. I yelped loudly and stared at my torn knuckles, blood had already started to seep through the skin. I slid down against the wall and held my knees to my chest as I tried to force the treacherous tears away. Was I honestly expecting a different outcome? Had I really believed that Melody and I could have a future together after everything I had done? After everything I was continuing to do? The only reason I had the opportunity to fall in love with her at all was because of the wretched assignment Voldemort had tasked to me: to persuade Melody to willingly join the Death Eaters rather than by force. My stomach instantly felt nauseous when I realized I had to actually be grateful towards Voldemort for blessing me with her, I loved her more than I could ever have imagined and it was because of my damn assignment. I shuddered at the consequences I would soon have to face if I wasn't able to procure Melody for Voldemort. His desire for Melody's telepathy had only grown stronger since he had overtaken the Ministry and Hogwarts. I knew he was becoming more impatient with waiting for her.

I desperately wished I could strip the surname Malfoy from myself and take Melody back and run away together, maybe then we could have a chance at happiness. My lips quivered as more accursed tears welled in my eyes, the idea was laughable and most of all impossible. Melody had disappeared and hastily married Oliver Wood, she moved on without a second thought. As much as I wanted to hate her for this, I couldn't force myself to even be angry with her, she deserved happiness and she had done what she could to secure it. My life had become nothing less than chaotic since the beginning of summer. Melody did not deserve to be burdened with this too. She didn't deserve to have her life threatened because of me. My stomach turned as I contemplated the reality that her life was already threatened because Voldemort would find her eventually, with or without my involvement. He always acquired what he wanted, by any means necessary. I should have felt alleviated to know that Melody was safe with Oliver and out of harm's way, for now. But the pain of having to lose her was too much to endure, and there wasn't anything I could do now, she was someone else's wife.

I forced the agonizing thoughts from my mind as I heard a hesitant knock on my bedroom door. I jumped up from the floor and wiped the tears from my eyes as my mother let herself in. Her face was stoic as she closed the door behind her. She approached me and I took a step back from her, she flinched. I sighed as I slumped against my bed. My mother sat beside me and hesitantly touched my hand that was still holding tightly to Melody's crumpled letter.

"Is everything alright Draco?" She asked quietly.

"No."

My mother took a deep breath and fidgeted with her slacks. "What's wrong sweetheart?"

I stood up from my bed and gaped at my mother, I couldn't believe she would ask me such a ridiculous question. "You mean other than being imprisoned in my own home? Or having to witness him torturing people at all hours? Or murdering professors right in front of me? And worst of all, requiring me to surrender the love of my life to him? I couldn't possibly imagine what is wrong with me Mother." I sneered through clenched teeth.