Grass Ain't Greener

Half Crazy

A/N:
I'll be dedicating this entire book to my brother Braxton Reed Edwards... He was killed senselessly to Gun Violence on August 21, 2016... Shit been fuckin with my head ever since & it's only been a week, so I'm just going to write... Thanks for reading 🙏🏽

CHRIS BROWN POV:

They say the good doesn't always last forever, but I refuse to believe that because she was as close to perfection as close could ever be. She was the epitome of pure natural beauty; beautiful on the outside just as she was on the inside. The mark she left on not only my life, but others was remarkably impeccable & I refuse to let her legacy return to this world as dust. It's far from over. If I've never believed in love before or ever received anything less of it I'm glad I've grown to know what it's true form is & that is she. She is love's true form. The way she laughs when I was to agitate her at times was golden. The way she'd furrow her eyebrows together when she was upset. She'd find every way possible to avoid me when she was upset & I'd find my way just to be next to her & see her happy again. The way she'd make me feel relaxed after a long day of working my ass off, it was all too surreal. & not to make myself sound selfish, but I knew she was made for me the first time I knew I loved her more than myself. I knew with her emotional & physical scars that I'd have to do more than give & take with her & I was perfectly fine with that as long as I knew she'd always be mine. & she is mine. From the first growing strand of hair in her head to the last imprint of the soles of her feet, she is mine. No heartbeat has ever replicated mine as hers does. But without her here in my arms, I feel lost without her. I've been lost without her for some months now & I just need her. I wish someone could tell me something. I've tried to handle things myself, but I'm Chris Brown of course. I can't do shit & plus my babygirl Ro still needs me. Everyday I'm without her is something I know I'm not capable of being for the rest of my life... Slowly, but surely I'm dying being without her.

FLASHBACK:

"Baby, I told you I promise that I'll make it up to you! Please don't be mad at me baby." I was trying to get Lex to not be so upset with me, but she wasn't hearing me.
"Maurice, it's not even the fact you could make it up to me. YOU PROMISED me that I'd have today with you before you go back to Vegas to finish up your last weeks of touring." Every time she was beyond furious or hurt, she would call me by my middle name. She was not for it right now.
"I know baby, but if I can finish this business for BP right now here in LA, then by the time I'm done with O.H.O.A.N. Tour, the new collection will be launched. You'll only be without me for 3 weeks babe. I promise." "Promises ain't shit now and days. You know it's not for certain that I can come see you on your birthday while you're out there.... You know we're always together on each other's birthdays!" I walked up to her as she was leaned up against the marble counter. I took her chin & lifted it so our lips could caress each other's. "How about I'll just give them an hour or 2 of my time at the max? In the meantime, you get dolled up for daddy. I want you tonight. You've been actin up & daddy doesn't like his girl distressed like this. When I get home, I'm tearin that ass up," I said with a sly smirk.
"How about you be 30 minutes late by dickin me down right now & only give them an hour & a half of your time & come back to finish desert?," she said barely above a whisper with lustful eyes. "Your wish," I said in between kisses, "is definitely my command." We didn't need a bed for the loving we were about to make...

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    "Okay babe, I'll be back as soon as possible," I said buckling my pants. "You better be. You know you gotta finish what you started." "Don't I always babygirl?" "Always daddy. I'm going to miss you so hurry up," she said carless of wrapping the covers around her naked glowing body. "Yes ma'am, green eggs, & ham!," I said kissing her passionately for a brief second. "I love you Mrs. Lexi Alejana Brown." "I love you more Mr. Christopher Maurice Brown." "Impossible," I smiled. She blew me a kiss & I pretended to catch it & placed it on my heart. She laughed and i smiled while leaving her behind.

2 hours later....

    I was running a little late because I stopped to get her favorite moscato. I'm sure she wouldn't mind that along with chocolate covered fruit. As I pulled into my driveway, I got an uneasy feeling. I grabbed the stuff I had gotten her in the seat and locked my car after shutting the door. Running up towards the front door, I noticed that it was creaked open... What the fuck.
    "Baby I'm home! Where you at?!" Before I could even fathom what I saw next I went into an angry panic. I began calling 911. The dispatcher was telling me to calm down, but I couldn't. The more I looked through the house, the more afraid I got. I ran to my room where basically everything else was also destroyed. The bed sheets we had made love on from earlier had been changed, but the new bed sheets were in a mess... Like something happened in them. I walked over all of the broken glass towards my bed & examined it more closely. I saw blood and a note. My eyes began to get blurry of vision as I read the note.

                "What's mine will always be mine."

    I couldn't control my body from that moment on...

FLASHBACK OVER!

    Ever since then, I've never stopped looking for her. I know she's somewhere around here. Her heart is my very own & if she was dead & gone I would've known. Her twin sister, Bria, would've known. She's a fighter, but I hope to find her soon. We all do.

PRINCETON/JACOB POV:

One day God can forgive me of all of my sins... Maybe he'll understand that I did this out of love..... Yeah love.

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Lexi Alejana Haden who is characterized by Dyme Taylor is in the multimedia 😊😉

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