They say that everything has a consequence to whether it be right or wrong. They say that everything comes around goes right back around, whether it be bad or good...
It seems like everything after Lexi really hit a terrible downfall. Not only my personal life, but my career life. The boys decided that continuing on with each other would be too much. Prod, Roc, & Ray decided that being in a group wasn't their main priority anymore.. Plus Roc & Bria decided to have children. I was completely happy for them having twins. A boy named Ken'ichi & a girl named Kimiko. They are beyond beautiful. I'm going to have that one day with Lex.... Yeah we haven't been together in a whole 2 years, but I know she still wants me. Every time I want to be in her presence or try to touch her, she just distances herself like she hates me. I trying to refrain from thinking that she really does. Every time I try to gaze into her brown orbs, she looks away. Like I've done something to hurt her again. I'd never hurt her like I've already done...
I looked at her frail limp body & just shook my head. "Babe. Wake up. You gotta eat," I said shaking her body. She didn't move. "Get the fuck up!," I yelled at her. She jerked her head up. "Eat." She groaned & rolled her eyes at me. "Fuck you. You're probably just trying to kill my ass anyways or drug my ass. You can eat that shit, but I'm not." I groaned & wiped my face down with my hands. She was really being difficult. "Man fuck that, eat that shit! See! Look. It's not bad! Eat it!," I said eating some of the Mexican rice & chicken. "Whatever man, kill me if you're going to kill me. I don't have time for this bullshit. If Chris ever finds out you got me here, that's your whole soul, you better pray to the God's above that he doesn't figure your shit out." "Fuck that nigga! He ain't gon' do shit! You're only with him to make -" "You jealous? Yeah yeah yeah. Bullshit! I'm with Chris because I'm in love with him & he picked up the piece that you left on the ground after you broke my damn heart by cheating on me! You fucked shit up between us, not me. You have no rights to be mad at me, so fuck out of here with your bullshit." "So you still have that over my head?!" "I'm angry with you because you went back to the bitch who had your child while you were supposed to be in love with me & you were supposed to be the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with, but you wanna have your cake & eat it too. You made me an option the night you decided to be irresponsible! Fuck that shit you're on. I'm in love with Chris now & there isn't shit you could do about it because I know no one has stopped looking for me." "It's been 6 months... & you're 2 weeks pregnant now." "FUCK YOU JACOB!" "You already did," I said with a sly smirk. She had no choice, but to deal with me now. I know she was going to have my baby. I made her have consented sex with me. I told her that if she didn't, I knew some niggas who didn't mind takin Chris off of the face of this Earth, & this way I couldn't be charged for rape as well. If she was going to play shit the hard way, she was going to be stuck with me in every way possible. Whether if I could make her love me or not, She was always going to belong to me. As usual she had began her crying. I used to try to console her, but I'm only going to be hit & called out of my name so many times before I get tired.
"When are you going to let me free? I at least need to take care of this... this baby..." I turned around to face her with a smile. "Never. I'll be going to EVERY doctor's appointment with you. I'll start setting those up, but you're going nowhere." She ran her hands around her small growing tummy & groaned before looking at the plate of food. "I hate you so fucking much Jacob.... I hate you so much. I wish you could understand this hatred that has grown for you inside of my drained soul. You've taken everything from me... & little by little you're taking my sanity... I wish you could understand this seed that you've implanted within my life is deep rooted & it can never be dug up. No matter what you do or how karma gets you back, my life cannot be replenished of these painful scars." "Lexi.... how many fucking times do I have to tell you to shut that shit up?! You're here, you're going to stay here & deal with the shit! I understand I fucked up, but I deserve another shot-" "AND YOU THINK YOU'RE GETTING ANOTHER FUCKING ONE LIKE THIS? HUH JACOB? FUCK NO! YOU'RE DISMISSED!" "Lex I -" "FUCK OUT OF MY FACE BITCH! KILL ME OR GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE!" I clenched my jaw to refrain from spazzing on her. She was testing me like hell. Why couldn't she understand my love for her? At times I wanted to kill her and bring her back to life and tell her to stop saying stupid shit to me, but I could & never would do that. She's my world whether she sees it or not.
CHRIS POV:
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It's crazy right? How at first I was a complete mess & she was my only cure. She is my only cure. It's crazy how I materialistically have everything, but without her, it feels like I am left with nothing at all but darkness within my soul. She's my light & without her, I see nothing. I am numb without her. She was taken from me, but until I have proof of him taking her away from me, I'll remain stuck in this mechanical dummy condition. Even though the police tell me to stop looking for her or there isn't anything I can't do without evidence and the proper help to find her, I ignored all suggestions. She's my whole world & without her... how could I be whole? I refuse to ever find that out. I just know he has her somewhere.... but where?
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