My dad was not happy with my response and he is making me go to a support group for trouble teens. I actually kind of won't mind doing that. It seems like a really good idea and maybe I can make friends with someone as troubled as I am. Heck I might even like it. I walked into school with my head held high. Actually it must have been to high because you know that boy Coy; I could have sworn that he was checking me out. Like he thought I was cute. Then he came up to me and said hi. I'm new here do you think could show me around.
I replied with "haven't you been here for a week"?
Coy said "why yes I have but you noticed didn't you"?
I replied "with of course I noticed you're super cute"!!!!
Coy said "you think so"?
I replied with "Um Yea what isn't cute about you? You've got gorgeous blue eyes, you're tall but not to tall. I mean I could go on but you probably don't want to hear me rant about how cute you are. And it is kind of creepy if you ask me".
Coy replied with "wow you are totally cute we should go on a date"?
I replied with "like a date with me"? .
Coy replied with "yes of course".
We sat at lunch together and all people could do were stare, but I was actually pretty darn happy. It totally made my like entire year in a long time. I know I seem to be melodramatic, but if you know my past then you know why. I was totally smiling. He told me that I was the most beautiful girl in the entire school. At first I thought that this was all one big joke, but no he really did like me. Like he was head over heels for me. And I had no idea why? Like there was nothing special about me, but for some reason he totally could not stop smiling and laughing at my jokes. Like my jokes are lame and there so cliche. I was sure that I was joking, but maybe this is what it's like to be loved. I say that I'm sure I was joking because no one could possibly love me. I looked him in his blue eyes as he talked about his dad and how last summer they fixed up a shack out here, and how his dad wanted to move then but he did not want to rush things to fast. That was like two months ago.
I replied with "so two months is not rushing"?
Coy replied with "well in my defense he was kind of pushed by me to move out here. Like I kept on bugging him. Telling him that it was nice down here. And that there was a lot of good people. The school is much bigger and it seems like a better place to live then I was living in before. I am actually much happier here, and apparently I am popular here".
I replied with " for starters it is not nice here like at all. Well maybe this state is nice, but the people are definitely not nice. Most the people here are fake. And they bully me a lot. So you can probably guess that I am unpopular, and totally shocked by you talking to me. Like I am a complete ghost and I'm not even pretty".
Coy said "look you are definitely not ugly. You are the most beautiful girl that I've seen at this school. You got this cute way of doing things. And you are really super smart. I like smart chicks. There is nothing wrong with you at all. And who cares about people they are stupid and they do not know the real you. Heck neither do I, but from what I have seen I totally like so far. You are an amazing person because everyone is amazing in their own way. Everyone has their faults, and some people bully because of the way that they are treated or because of certain circumstances. So try not to be so hard on the people that bring you down in life those people are the ones that shape you the most. They make you think about what life is really like. Is it a disaster or is it not? That's the question to always to be asked. But one has to look at things from a birds eye view and say there is more to life than what seems to be. Everyone lives a different life and no one truly knows someone like they do themselves. So take pride in yourself. That's why I talked to you today because something changed about the way you were acting. You looked happy and prideful. And that is something that should always be valued in life. You only get one chance in life to live and be happy. If you die it is all over there is no going back.
I sat there in glory and took in all that was said. He was not only cute, but he was also really smart and I was absolutely already falling for him. Am I crazy to be thinking like that. I mean what is it to fall for someone what does that mean? I don't even know myself, but I felt absolutely good and I liked it. It seemed like the bullying stopped that day. Or at least people were more nice to me because I left lunch holding his hand. I myself was even shocked that a girl like me was leaving with a guy like him. I mean come on how could this even be true. What is the make of life is what I kept thinking to myself. His words stuck in my head like glue. Like maybe I should Starr cutting people some slack. No one makes the choice to be put in a bad situation, but sometimes human emotion wins and it comes out in the wrong way. That is a ducky thing, but that still doesn't discredit people from their actions. At least that's what I think. Life is a crazy and insane concept. One minute you can be happy, then the next it can come crashing down. But if I continued to let people get the best of me then I would be destroyed. I would seize to exist. That is the thought that scares me the most. Life and death are a parallel that exist hand and foot. It is a hard thing to think of, but it is best to leave it at that and try not to mess with it to much. I mean I might actually have a potential boyfriend now. He wanted to have our first date on Friday which was like in three days. I had to figure out how to get myself ready for this because I had never been on a date in my entire life. I mean I'm an emotional wreck. There isn't much great about me. I mean I don't have really anything going for me at all. Life is a beautiful thing and that's what I have to tell myself because for the first time it's becoming more beautiful if that's possible. I went home on the bus that day and I could not stop smiling. I walked through the front door and my dad noticed that I was happy. He gave me a weird look.
He then said "what's different about you"?
I then said "I have got a date on Friday with this amazing boy named Coy, and I don't even understand why?
My dad then said " maybe it is because he thinks your amazing just like I do. Everyone is amazing in there own way.
Well I think that's enough for one day.
