forever always

iii. flashbacks

✿✿3 days later✿✿

My head was resting on Jade's shoulder while she sat on my lap. We were in the tour bus but since the boys needed their own seats, I volunteered to let Jade sit on my lap. Harry groaned but ignored us- he must hate the PDA, but there was no other choice. She leaned against the window, half asleep since the baby tended to drain all of her energy, and he or she wasn't even born yet. 

"Niall?" Jade whispered, "My stomach hurts." 

"It's nothing babe," I kissed her cheek then her stomach. I hummed merrily and rocked her back and forth. Ever since I found out she was pregnant, I've felt more protective of her. 

"Are you tired, sweetie?" I mumbled into her ear. She nodded so I took off my coat and rolled it up into a ball, a makeshift pillow for now. On the way to a concert, you don't have much on you. I put it against the window and she smiled. 

"You're too sweet..." she whispered slightly before lying against the pillow. In not too long, she's sound asleep. I chuckled and kissed her neck softly. I looked out the window then kissed Jade's bump. "How are you baby Horan?" I murmured. Liam smiled and whispered, "Hi baby boy," then rubbed her bump slowly. 

"It could be a girl, you know," I said matter-of-factly. Liam just laughed and I pushed him away. I pressed my lips against Jade's cheek. I leaned down and started to sing a few lullabies softly to the baby. Jade's eyes fluttered open. 

"Whatcha doing babe?" she smiled sleepily. I blushed a deep red and sat up. "N-nothing..." I heard Zayn snicker and I shot him a look. 

I felt Jade's hand go through my hair and I relaxed. She turned herself to face me and whispered in my ear, "Were you singing to the baby?" I nodded slowly and looked down. 

She pushed my chin up and pecked my lips. I closed my eyes and tried to pull her closer but she backed away. 

"Not fair Jade, that wasn't a real kiss," I pouted. "Don't be such a tease." 

Jade laughed then whispered in my ear. "Oh you know I've always been a tease," she nipped my neck and I bit my lip. Flashbacks soared through my head. 

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I shoved Jade against the wall, sucking and nipping at her neck. Little moans escaped her lips while she tried to get friction. I purposely steered away and kissed her roughly. She whimpered and kissed me back while I found my way the zipper on her dress. "Niall," she breathed against my lips. I ripped her dress off after unzipping it. 

"You're not gonna be able to walk tomorrow," I growled in her ear. Her knees went weak and I had to hold her up. I picked her up and threw her on the bed. 

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I snapped back and Jade looked concerned. "Babe you okay?" Her eyes were full of compassion. I shook my head and kissed her roughly. She pushed me away. "Niall not now!" she scolded. "What's up with you!" 

I groaned then slunk back into my seat. I looked up at Jade; arms crossed over her bump and a glare on her face. Man, she was ticked. I kissed her bump but she pushed me off. "I want to sit *alone*." She hissed. Harry smirked at me, "Well, you can't sit alone but you can sit with me." Jade huffed then looked at me. Well, glared at me. I just gestured to Harry and she hopped off me and sat on his lap. I just looked away. "Don't touch my baby," I muttered bitterly. 

"You mean like... this?" Harry leaned down and kissed Jade's bump. She blushed deeply and pushed him lightly away. "What a loved baby," she giggled. 

"Don't you dare do that again," I glared at Harry. He glared right back. Jade sighed deeply. She was obviously annoyed with out behavior but I couldn't help it. 

"Oh wait," Harry started, "Did you mean this baby?" 

"There's only one baby," I said annoyed. God he was so fucking stupid sometimes. "No, you call Jade 'baby' all the time." 

"Don't you even-" Much to my horror, he pulled Jade down and kissed her. And she didn't even pull away. "Just stop..." I begged, looking away. Louis smacked Harry's hand and Harry pulled away. "What the hell?" Jade tried to get up but Harry kept her down. She gave up, which was reasonable considering the state she was in, and lay on Harry's chest. She fell asleep and I got up. "Listen Harry," I gritted through my teeth. "Just let her sit with me and I won't kill you." 

Harry laughed but I picked her up anyway. "Fuck you," I added after, and went to sit down. Jade woke up once I sat down. I groaned. "Baby go to sleep." She shrugged and curled up on my lap. We pulled up to the stadium where we were performing. 

We left Jade in the bus with my jacket. I was slightly worried but I had other things to think about. We did a quick sound check then I sat down at the edge of the stage. Liam came over and sat next to me. 

"Dude you seem stressed out, relax." Liam cooed. 

"I can't relax, Harry fucking kissed my girlfriend!" He jumped off stage lightly and regained his balance. 

"Calm down Niall, he was messing with you," Liam just sighed and walked over to Louis.

I sat at the edge of the stage and lay down. "Fucking dick," I mumbled. Zayn came over and sat next to me. "You alright mate?" 
"No I'm not alright, I'm pissed and worried about Jade," I groaned and sat up. "I'm going to the bus."

Before anyone could say anything I ran outside to our tour bus and went in. "Babe?" I crouched next to Jade and kissed her forehead. She woke up and smiled. "Hi honey," she kissed me. I pulled her close and stroked her hair before I bit down on her lip, making her moan. "Shit babe, I need you," I whispered. She pulled away, looking me straight in the eye. 
"All you want is sex. Am I right?" she questioned. "This baby was conceived because you just needed sex soooo badly on a day I said I shouldn't have sex!"
"Baby-" "No Niall, there's nothing you can say to make this okay," she started to get up.
"Baby, maybe I didn't just want sex, maybe I wanted a baby..." She stopped and looked at me.
"That's fucking worse'" she got up and went inside to the performance hall.

I groaned and pulled on my hair. "You idiot Niall, idiot." I felt pressure weighing down on me to be perfect and fix all our problems and couldn't breathe. I tried to gasp for air but I was having asthma attack. 
"Where's my inhaler?" I choked as I searched for it. I grabbed it and took a big gulp of air, the color returning to my face.
Gathering my strength, I went inside and found the boys hudding around Jade. 
"What's going on?" I thought aloud. "Jade, uh, felt some more pains in her stomach..." I rushed over to her and picked her up. 
"You alright darling?" She nodded cuddling up to me. I stroked her hair back. I whispered into her ear, "You do realize I want you because you're so fucking hot, right?" She nodded and got herself down. "I'm fine honey, I'm just so tired..." She went backstage and fell asleep on the couch.

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After the concert, I woke up Jade. "Baby?" "mmm no five more minutes..." she rolled over.
"Jade the fans are here, some want to meet you," I gently picked her up and set her down on the ground. "Okay ni..." I led her to a group of girls who screamed once they saw her. "Omg omg hi Jade!" She smiled and took pictures with them. One went to hug her but I stepped in and hugged the girl instead. A few others hugged Jade at the same time though.
"Whoa, are you like pregnant...?" A fan pushed up her sweatshirt and they saw her little bump. "Uh... I mean we weren't planning on telling anyone yet but yeah haha... Niall's the dad." 
They squealed and ran over to the other boys.

"Can we please go home?" I nodded and locked our arms together and brought her to the limo. No one else was on the bus, so I started to take off her sweatshirt. "Whatcha doin'?" she giggled. "Looking at your cute belly," I said kissing her stomach. She stroked my hair and I moved down to her pants and laid her down. It reminded me all too well of a scene that felt like ages ago.

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"Fuck fuck fuck!" Jade screamed pulling on my hair. I smirked and pushed her hips down, keeping her from moving. "Niall oh my god!" she moaned, trying to pull me closer. I hummed sending vibrations and putting her even more over the edge.

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I looked up at Jade, who looked perfectly innocent. I knew she was thinking the same thing though, her mind was dirtier than mine. I pulled up to her and kissed her. She kissed me back, but eventually pulled away before anything got serious. 
"I love you, so so much," she kissed my cheek. "I love you too, so so so much," I said winking.
I smiled and sat up with her. "How's the baby feel?" She shrugged and looked away. "I told my mum and she's pissed that we aren't married," she sighed. "Actually she's pissed at how young I am but it's not my fault." She rolled her eyes but laughed. "I'm not mad at you, Nialler."
I smiled, "Well good, because your mom can't change anything."  She leaned on my shoulder and I rubbed her stomach in pure bliss.