FAT, is one word to describe me. Obese, is another word to describe fat ,yet you need to be more cautious about it. Overweight is a nice way to say fat. All of theses words are said in one day. By you and my love ones. There's so much I can't say yet you use it against me everyday. Scared how it will all turn out someday. Boys don't have to go through this. They just get to say that one word that turns our world upside down into a state of starvation yet it's not just boys that get to say that, is this voice inside my head begging me for one more chance by loving myself and being the one I was meant to be because I know this isn't me.I ask myself how can I love myself as my own mother doesn't even despise me.Not either one of them had said I love you. Like the way I feel pretty without eating. That don't even seem to notice I'm drowning myself in my own wave. You feel like a drug I have been using everyday. I drag myself down with no other word to say. Making me wish upon a star, that i don't believe in. I tell myself this is the day of recovery yet I end up eating less everyday. You are making me think that some of this is my fault for falling in the state of starvation and its crazy how I just do it just to lose one pound of me. Don't know how to feel. This all feels so real. The tragedy that took over me to this day. I might not be the same, yet I know I'm here to stay. So this is my Hello to the state of starvation I know to this day.
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* This story contains content such as anorexia, self harm, suicide,drug abuse, sexual content and swearing . I do not take any responsibility for anyone who is triggered or offended by my story. *
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Anorexic // n.h
FanfictionNo No No No you can't. You are not hungry. You are not hungry. Just one more lap of running that's all. Just keep going. There's nothing wrong with me.
