Anorexic // n.h

Chapter4

" Please Gabby, Please Gabby you can't do this please just please take me home please".

I begged Gabby not to leave me here. At this point I'm crying my eyes out. I can see in Gabby's eyes that she's torn and heart broken by making the choose of leaving me here.

" Please " I didn't what to stay here like I'm some crazy person because there's nothing wrong with me.

* Flashback to earlier in the morning *

I woke up with lights flashing, I quickly sat up and realize my bed moving through out the hospital hallway. I panicked, looking around and saw the nurses that were moving the bed.

" Where are you guys taking me " I said with a shaky voice. One of the nurses smile kindly, she was maybe around her early forties with a few of gray hairs showing out of her ponytail.

" To an eating disorder facility, sweetie " she said with a calm voice.

" I never agreed or even been asked to be taken to a eating disorder facility " I said with the calmest voice I could do. I was confused and mad that someone made this decision for me with the worst part not telling me.

" Well we advised you and you agreed with the statement ".

And right when she said that I already knew who agreed to that. My one and only twin sister  Gabby.

* Flashback ended *

I was in a room by myself but there was another bed at the other side of the room. The walls were white yet it looked elegant with only three windows. Yet the windows were locked.

How do you know?

You may be asking. I might had trying to open the windows multiple times and sadly failed to open them.

I was sitting here trying to sightly listening to Gabby and the doctors, conversation but couldn't make up the words they were saying. I stopped trying to figure it out. I was locked in a stupid room I felt like I was in prison. No freedom, no privacy and no bathroom. I really need to go to the bathroom. So I pressed a button that called the nurse to help help. It was quite embarrassing to ask for help to go to the bathroom but there is a tube going down my nose to my stomach.

Literally forcing food in me like I wasn't fat enough already.

A few minutes later a nurse came in the room asking me what I needed. I shyly reply that i desperately need to use the washroom. She helped me up the bed and slowly but me in a wheelchair but I kept telling her I could walk but she told me I wasn't allowed to. I was confused why I couldn't get up and just walk to the bathroom. As I got out of the room I realized my sister and the doctor weren't there anymore.
Did she just leave  me ?

Did she really just left me with no goodbye,
no hug?

She left me with  Nothing .

Did she even cared?

Was she just doing this because she felt bad for me?

All these things were going on in my head that I didn't even realize we arrived to the bathroom. The nurse helped me up and I slowly walked to the washroom and did my business. After that I went back into my room when they opened the door I was shocked.