Beneath Your Beautiful

Chapter 13

Cassie's POV:

I dialed Julie's number hoping she'd answer. I sat down in the living room of Louis' and Harry's apartment.

I needed to get out of here.

I hate him.

I mean it this time.

"Cassie?" Louis says stepping into the room.

I don't reply.

"I'm sorry." he continues.

I stay silent.

"I didn't mean that." he walks towards where I'm sitting.

"I really didn't." he stands in front of me and I shake my head.

"Cassie..please..say something."

"Get away from me." I continue to stare at my feet.

"I'm sorry.."

"Sure." I reply.

"I didn't mean it...any of it. I don't mean for me to keep screwing up." he stares at me intently. I look up and lock with his harsh gaze.

"I'm sorry." he repeats.

"Me too."

"For what?" he asks.

"For giving you more chances then you deserve." I feel a lump devoloping in my throat "for forgiving you after all the shit you've put me through. For..for, for giving in to you time after time. For leaving Niall's." I stop and bite my lip to stop the tears "for even meeting you."

His blue eyes lower and he stands a little shorter. I stand up and fix his shirt on my body then return to my position on the couch.

"I love you." he says and my eyes snap towards him and I sigh.

"Don't say it..if you don't mean it." I reply and push strands of blonde out of my face.

"I do. I mean it. I love you. I love you. I love you." he repeats and I shrug.

"I don-"

"You do." he cuts me off.

"No..no I don't.." I reply.

"Yes you do." he comes down to where I'm sitting,"you know you do. And I love you. We love each other. We belong together."

I can't make out what's happening, so I nod...silently confused.

"You do then?" he asks.

"What?"

"You love me?"

"Yes."

"Say it." he demands.

"I love..you." I fumble across my words. He tugs at my hands and wraps his fingers around his hand and tugs me up towards him. I plant my feet on the ground and he wraps his large arms around me and I return the favor.

"I love you more." he mumbles against my hair.And I smile against his chest and he tugs his hands around my hand so we walk back to his room together. He pulls the blanket back and we both tug our bodies in next to each other. His hot breath flows against my neck as my back lays closely to his chest.

"Goodnight baby." he says into me.

"Goodnight.." I couldn't believe I was actually here.

It was so familiar and..as much as I hate to admit it..I loved it. All of this.

I love him.

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"Lou? Where are you going?"

"Shh..babe go back to bed." Louis whispers against me and I fall back asleep as his warm arms and body leaves the bed. I slowly drift back asleep, too tired to fight.

Louis' POV:

I strolled over to my car and hopped in. I can't fucking believe Julie and Harry, fucking calling me at 4:30 to go and get them from Hannah's. I don't tell Cassie because then..then she'll tag along and she'll complain about Hannah and shit and I don't wanna fucking deal with it right now. I drive what seems like minutes and pull up to the familiar house. I walk inside and see Julie and Harry in a circle with a bunch of kids.They look a lot younger than us? What the hell are they doing here?

"Lou!!" Julie beams and runs over to me.

What the fuck?

Her arms wrap around me tightly and I place my hand around her lightly.

"Are you..okay?" I laugh a little and she looks up at me giggling.

"I'm soo drunk Loubear!" she laughs and I do too. Her laugh contagious.

"Hey! Come meet our new friends - they brought some...toys." she giggles and tugs my hand towards the group. I nod and lock eyes witth one familiar boy.

No fucking way.

"From left to right..Harry, Kelly, Maria, Nick, Jared, Hannah, Aaron, and Lily." she points to each person and Jared looks up from his concentrated hand which was wrapped around a small needle.

I bite the inside of my mouth.

Cassie's little fucking brother.

Thank god she didn't fucking come.

"Do you want to try?" Hannah asks with a smirk glued to her face as she stares at the small pile of drugs on the table.

"I..um...I don't think.."

"It'll be fun!" Hannah laughs and Jared does too.

I should fucking kill him.

"Come on..." Hannah presses on.

"I um..sure?" I walk over to where Lily is sat and she quote-on-quote sets me up. I watch as Lily presses the small syringe down into my skin and I feel sick almost instantly. The world is spinning and I look up at Hannah and Jared who are snickering to themselves. Harry and Julie are curled next to on the couch and I feel almost lightweight. I look at my feet and I feel everything spinning, I grip the sofa for balance before feeling a knot tighten in my throat.

"What..why?" I can even make a sentence causing Hannah to laugh a bit harder. I feel my stomach clench and lean over and vomit at my feet.

"Let it out Lou!" Hannah laughs and Jared does too.

It feels like it'll never end, every cup of alcohol is now sitting in a pool near my feet.

"Feels good huh man?" Jared asks patting my back only forcing more vomit out. Lily trades places with Hannah and she soothes me - or attempts too.

"It'll be better in a few minutes." she promises and I attempt to stop the vomitting.

Cassie is going to kill me.