i started thinking about him yesterday. i was on my way home from the beach and i thought "today wouldve been so much fun if he were here" and then it hit me what i said...
i tear streamed down my cheek. i then realized; i cant get over him. i cant and i probaly never will.
he was my first love. not some boy i met when i was doing cheer and i had many sexual experiences with. he loved me and i pushed him away. i told him a zillion times a week that i loved him. then i pushed him away for no reason. i regret it to this day... and i broke up with him 2 years ago.
what is wrong with me?!??
