Daddy In Training (NovaHD)

CH.10-Moving on?

"You fucking asshole!" James yelled into the phone. "You fucking don't talk to me for weeks and i'm finally deciding to move on, to better myself and you fucking call!" He yelled, absolutely fuming. "I... i... i...." Aleks stuttered out, shocked by the anger and the language. "Fuck you! Fuck you to hell." The elder said, voice starting to break at the end. "D-do you like seeing me suffer? D-do you like p-playing with my head? Cuz i-i'm d-done... i.. I can't d-do this anymore." He said as a broken sob left his mouth. "I-I.. i'm so tired of being h-urt, of b-being a b-burden.." He sniffled as he wiped his face. "I-i... j-just.. w-wanna... b-be... l-l-loved.." He choked out. "I-i w-want t-to b-be n-normal." Aleks' heart broke as he listened James say all he's been holding in. He waited the other to grow quite before speaking. "J-Jamie..." He said softly, testing the waters. "D-don't call me that." James spit out harshly. "I-I'm sorry...." The Russian said quickly, trailing off. "Uh... James?" He tested again but didn't get a response, only hearing the soft uneven breaths of the other. "I.. I.." He stumbled out, no longer knowing what to say.

"I'm sorry." Aleks blurted out again, not having anything better to say. "Y-you're s-sorry?" James croaked out. "Th-That's all you f-fucking have to s-say?" He questioned angrily. "Fuck you, Aleks." He said in a defeated tone. "James, please-" The younger tried to get out but was cut off. "Let you explain? No." The elder said as he shook his head. "I'm done. I'm... just so done feeling like this and-and i can't risk dealing with you or anyone like you..." He said trailed off. "I've been hurt to much..." He added softly. "But James, I-" Aleks tried again only to be cut off. "No but, no please, no just listens. Nothing. I'm done with that life, i'm moving on. That's final." James said standing up for himself. "I suggest you do the same Aleks." He said flatly. "Either way i'm deleting and blocking your number, don't try and contact me... I don't need you ruining my new life too.." He said before hanging up, leaving a shocked and heartbroken Aleks on the other end.

James clutched the phone in his hand as he hovered over the others number. Was he really going to do it? Yes, yes he was and he did. He watched as it disappeared from his phone, leaving not a trace behind. It was a drastic and big step but he did it, only then hearing Seamus' words of not to do things like that. He was an adult, he didn't need to talk to Sea about choices he made. No, he could now freely so whatever he wanted! Now what did he want to do... He sighed out, unsure and unknowing of where to go next. After some moments of thought he decided if he was going to live a new life then he'd need a new job. He couldn't move on still doing makeup videos or hauls. No, he needed to do something more adult, something that would keep him away from thoughts of his little side. He decided on doing the only other thing he knew how to do, play video games and make videos. His little side hate them so much it would surely keep it at bay. So with that he went off to set up for his new job, starting with making a new channel.

A few hours later and he was done. He had his channel all set up, he had games downloaded and even recorded a few. He easily edited them up and set them out to render and upload over the next few days. He had also started making some new dating profiles, hoping to find some kind of stable man. James felt like he had accomplished something but at the same time it didn't feel right. It all felt to bleh but he knew as he lived and worked he'd pick up new likes and what not, slowly making himself not so bland. He hoped so at least. Either way his next step was to rid himself of all his little. Keeping it was only going to slow if not halt his moving on. A part of him was worried about if that was going to far but he pushed that down and quickly stood to go do so. All he needed to do was get rid of the boxes of stuff and and any other reminder of his old life, so that meant the stuff he still had hidden away from when Eddie and him dated. He definitely didn't want to think about those times.

James took a deep breath as he walked to his closet, instantly being assaulted but all his pink and girly outfits. He loved each and every outfit in his closet but he need to get rid of them. With a shaky breath he slowly pull down each and every outfit, shoving it into a bag. Part of him winced with each shove, knowing the outfit was now wrinkled but he had to get over it. After a long process all the clothes, accessories, shoes, and what not was in a bag resulting multiple black trash bags to now fill the floor of his room. It amazed him how much this stuff he had bought, it also amazed him how seemingly his other life now lived in a few bags and boxes. When he looked back at the closet he saw the boxes from when Eddie had left. Their mere sight causing his heart to race. They held all the things Eddie left with him or had gotten him that he couldn't bear to look at. There were some things like his ducks and some outfits he still used but most things lived there. They were easily forgotten in the back but now they needed to go with the rest.

James closed his eyes as he pulled the boxes out, not wanting to see them but it didn't help. He peeked and saw inside and couldn't help but pull out an old tan teddy. He bit his lip as he remembered the day he had gotten it. Soon his eyes caught something else, pulling it out like the last. Slowly he sat down and pulled item by item out, remembering each day and remembering the heartache all over again. 

*A/N*

Eyyyyy back with an update!!!!!! 

Sorry it took so long but i didn't know how to continue on but i know how this book shall end now! So with that said, if all stays on this plot line train there will only be two more chapters left?!?!?!

I'm happy with having a end in sight but kinda sad to see this go, so i may do a second book but i also don't want to have to try and make it better then this so... ehhhh idk. Like i have a plot for it kinda but like i said i'm worried that it will flop in comparison. Either way if writers block doesn't take me then the last two chapters should be out soon!

I want to say now thanks for all the support and when this ends ill do a more in depth thanks but yah, thanks!

love you all~

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