UMBRELLA-YOONMIN

LOVE HURTS

       Jimin is welcomed by two small papers on the table in his office. He takes a look and realized that it Taeyang’s concert ticket.
He reads the other paper “I didn’t do it because you told me to. I am so rich right now so I am in the mood to spend my money on you. Meet me at at the outside of  the building at 3.20 . And don’t you dare to get into my room today or I’ll change my mind.”
He laughs after reading the short pharagraph. Tonight,maybe he’ll forget Jeongguk tonight.

         “I think we’re the only men here.” Yoongi says as he looks around “We’re drowned by the girls.”
They’re standing near the stage,close enough to see Taeyang’s face. It was all thank to Yoongi who finished his papers in a short time. It is 7 pm now and the stadium has been full of people and with banners such as “Taeyang I Love You” ; “YongBae Be My Bae” ; “V.I.P” ; and many more. Meanwhile Jimin is holding a yellow crown stick. Jimin sighs seeing the colour. But all he can do is accepting the colour that reminds him of Jeongguk. Because he knows it’s not a good idea to go to a stationery  store,buy a crayon,and draw it into something like blue. Yoongi will scold him.
“Hey! It’s not a bad thing.” Jimin protests Yoongi. He really dislikes it when someone considers things based on gender
“Hey! I didn’t say it was a bad thing. It is a cool thing. Like,maybe you’ll be noticed,not only because of your red hair,but also because we’re the only men here.”
Jimin purses his lips. “I hope so.” Jimin looks over the stage and Taeyang’s been standing on the stage. “It’s gonna be started!”
Yoongi just smiles seeing the over excited 20 years old guy.
“Let the party begin!” Taeyang shouts and he starts to singing “Good boy”
Everyone screams,including Jimin. While Yoongi keeps his eyes on Jimin who’s dancing wildly now to “Ringa Linga”
“Hyung,you have to dance!” Jimin shouts because the screams are filling the stadium
“WHY?”
“Because you look like an old man. C’mon!”
And that’s how two of them dance until the rain’s falling.

"Okay,and now,for the closure,I wanted to present a song that fits this weather perfectly. I sincerely present this song for those whose hearts are broken right now. I hope you guys can move on after listening to this song.”
Taeyang starts to singing “Wedding Dress”. It is all quiet now. All the fans in the stadium are waving their lighsticks in the air,except Jimin. He just looks down,listening to every word in the lyrics.

“When The Music Starts
You Will Vow To Spend
The Rest Of Your Life With Him
How I Prayed Every Night
That This Day Would Never Come”

Jimin keeps his head down. He could see from the corner of his eye,Yoongi’s looking at him. The sky’s not the only who’s crying right now.

“Please Be Happy With Him
So That I Can Forget You
Please Forget How Miserable I Looked
It’s Going To Be Unbearably Hard For Me
For A Long While To Come”

       Yoongi drives the car quietly while Jimin is looking outside the window. They haven’t talked since 10 minutes ago. It is 9.30 pm now and Seoul is rained.
“Thanks,hyung.” Jimin finally breaks the silence when they’re stuck on traffic jam.
“Don’t mention it.” Yoongi keeps his eyes on the road
“I-I’m sorry for being quiet. I was just having a moment.” Jimin is stuttering. He mentally wishes the tears won’t fall again.
“That’s okay. Everyone deserves to having a moment when it’s hard.”
The cars are slowly moving again.
Jimin sighs “I used to listen to wedding dress while being asleep. But now,the lyric of the song makes me lose my sleep.”
“That’s the art of the song. When you’re happy,you enjoy the music. When you’re sad,you understand the lyric.”
Jimin looks at Yoongi “Hyung,I never knew you could create such beautiful phrase.”
Yoongi let out a desperate sighs “Jimin,that’s not mine. It was Frank Ocean’s quote.”
Jimin laughs at his dumbness. He was never embarassed in front of Yoongi because Yoongi’s witnessed everything about him for these past two years.

       Jimin still remembers how Yoongi ran into his apartment after receiving a call from Jimin who said he was feeling so tired and want to sleep. Jimin didn’t tell Yoongi that he wanted to die because of his depression,but Yoongi knew. Yoongi always knew without being told.  Since that day,Yoongi always visitted Jimin’s apartment at night. Yoongi never told Jimin why,but Jimin knew. Jimin knew his bestfriend was making sure that he didn’t do something stupid. Yoongi did it for three months until Jimin convinced Yoongi to not to doing it,because Jimin could see that Yoongi didn’t get enough sleep. And since that time,Jimin determined to beat the depression for his hyung.
       They’re in a silence again. The rain is still falling.
“That song fits my condition perfectly. Except for the wedding dress. He doesn’t wear it.” Jimin forces a laughter while Yoongi also does the same.
Jimin takes a deep breathe “But,I’ll move on. I’ll call him tonight. I’ll congratulate him sincerely.”
Yoongi smiles “Simply Park Jimin.”
Jimin once again smiles. But this time,he doesn’t force it “Hyung,as I’ve promised you,because you’ve bought me the concert ticket and went with me-“
Suga quickly protests  “Hey! I’ve told you that I didn’t do it because you told me to!”
“Okay,whatever.” Jimin rolls his eyes and continuing his lines “Because you’ve bought me the concert ticket and went with me,I’d accept your love by telling you a secret.”
“Is there something about you that I don’t know?”
Jimin nods “Beside the photo of you that I took while you’re asleep,there’s one more.”
Yoongi punches Jimin’s arm. Hard enough to make Jimin regretting his decision.
Jimin looks outside the window. The atmosphere suddenly changes into a silence again
“Hyung,You knew that I’d never been in love before,didn’t you? It was all because of my parents. When I was 17,I realized that I wasn’t into girls. So,I told my mom,in hope she’d understand. But I was wrong. Along with my father,they scolded me,they beat me,they said I was a sin. They said I was satan’s son. But it wasn’t the most painful thing. My parents’ death was. They set themselves in a fire. People thought they did it because of money matter. But I knew it wasn’t because of it. They did it because they’re ashamed of their son’s sexual orientation. Since that time,I promised myself that I wouldn’t get attached to anyone. When I felt like I was attached to someone,I’d cut myself."
But then Jeongguk came,and I was surprised because I didn’t put up a fight. I loved him,and that’s all I know. But now,I guess I won’t fall for anyone anymore. Because love can hurt you in every damn ways.”
Jimin doesn’t realize that he talks while crying until Yoongi hands him a tissue
Yoongi looks at Jimin who’s wiping his tears and looks at the road again “Yes,love can hurt us in every ways.”