I'm so sorry it took me a few weeks updating the book! Just to make it up to you, I'll post 3 consecutive chapters this week. I promise that! Going back to the story, brace yourself for a bunch of revelations on this chapter! This will help you fully understand how broken the characters are so keep on reading!
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I'm having the most awkward moment of my life tonight. Quite confusing though, I'm never a fan of stage fright but at this very moment, I felt my hands shaking as well as my voice.
"Cut!" Bob called out cutting the music. He is my vocal coach and I'm surely doomed. "What is wrong Mia? The essence of this exercise is to shake away all your bitterness with this song. Try to overcome it. Shutting your eyes off may help. Try it." then the music starts again.
I got scolded by him for a few times then but with this one, I felt so embarassed. The fact that someone from my school is watching don't actually makes sense! This guy is something, I thought.
I did as what he said, I closed my eyes and tried to feel the song. At first it irritated me. It's like I'm acting that I'm expressing my thoughts through the lyrics of the song, then suddenly it felt real. Now I'm getting flashbacks! What happened with me and Justin, what he did, what I am after that, it's excruciating. I somehow managed to finish my piece and Bob really likes it. Handing me my booklet as I get off the stage, I read his comment for the day: "Astounding! The feelings were there, good voice quality, good facials, nice choice of song. Keep it up."
It was a relief. Now I can take my break. I excused myself to freshen up a little bit, and decided to talk to Chad.
"Hey there, good performance as always." Chad voiced out as I walk towards him.
"And my favorite part is the scolding. Whew." I said shyly, trying to shake my embarassment with some humor.
"Alright fellas, that's it for today! I hope this activity helped you somehow. Take care all of you!" that was Bob's final words before he left the room. I then grabbed my stuff and looked at the window, only to see that it's friggin' raining outside. It's around 8pm and I'm kind of hungry but there's no way I'm going home with a weather like that.
"Maybe we should stay for a few more." Chad suggested after seeing my awful look displayed in my face.
"I'll just get us some food." I agreed grabbing my purse and heades out to the door. Luckily there's still 4 sandwiches left so I took 2 of it. Bought 2 bottles of water then returned inside the room. Chad is now leaning at the balcony. He sure is thinking of something serious when I snapped.
"Here we go! Sorry this is all that's left." handing him the sandwich. He took it silently. Well seriously? "Thank you" will do. But I disregarded it.
"So... what's the story behind that song? If you don't mind me asking." Chad asked, breaking the silence as we eat.
Surprised by his question, I replied, "Oh that? Nothing much. Just some jerk I happen to... love."
"You shouldn't cry for nothing."
"Uhm, okay...? Why the sudden interest?"
"I'm just not used to seeing girls like you cry that way."
"Whoa! Girls like me? What am I like? I mean... that's discriminating."
"It's not the way you think. What I mean is girls are not meant to cry. You don't deserve it."
"Oh.. that. Well, some jerks doesn't know what it actually means."
"This world is unfair of course. But you know, having some closure is important so you'll stop beating yourself up in the future."
He seems like a love guru. He knows how to console people. I suddenly felt like crying when he added, "I'm ready to listen if you want to. I don't think the rain will stop within the next few minutes so we have plenty of time." he smiled at me.
The thought that he wants to talk about my problem is a bit confusing and awkward at the same time. I mean, I can consider him as a total stranger. It just so happens we are both enrolled in one school. With the look in his eyes, it seems like he's not the type of person who will just say anything for the sake of saying it; he really meant to listen and understand me.
"Okay then. Let's just stay here for fresher air." I replied as I lead him to the balcony. It didn't took me so long to tell him my story. How Justin and I met, how this guy treated me like shit, how stupid I was running after him after all that he's done and hasn't done, how desperate I am to get back to his life after he dumped me, and how love affects my whole system. I admitted that it was very silly of me thinking that it was real love. The relationship lasted for only a month! You can't blame me though, all of us look out for our future with the one we presently love.
In just 15 minutes of nonstop talking, I felt good. He doesn't interrupt which is good for me since I don't really like people cutting me off while I'm in the middle of something.
"That's it?" Chad looked deeply into my eyes, making sure that he wasn't interrupting at all.
"Yeah. That's it. Not too much for a drama right?" I answered trying to brush off the awkward feeling that just came back after I spilled the dirt.
"I can't blame you. You know how to love." he smirked.
We've been silent for a while. I was nervous that maybe he's thinking how insane I am or if he was just refraining himself to pity me or whatnot.
"Want to hear mine?" he said, breaking off the silence. I nodded. Of course I want to. He told me his story about Sherrie, which happens to be another schoolmate of mine. Sherrie and Chad started dating 4 months ago but until now, her mom doesn't have any idea about it. The girl's status at school is the opposite of Chad's. She loves the limelight; he doesn't. She's a headturner; he isn't. She is popular and friendly; he never is and never intended to be one. He confirmed how much he loved Sherrie that it kills him letting the love of his life go, especially that she needs to be around the same set of people as she is in able to fulfill her dreams of becoming the Queen Bee.
"That sucks. I'm sorry." I reacted.
"I know right. At least she's happy now." It isn't much of a sacrifice for him to do it but I know it still hurts.
"You know, maybe you guys were really not meant for each other. All I can say is... uhm, at least you tried to join their company. It's just that you can't really fit in. You don't need to change for her friends to like you." He just stared at me for a few minutes.
After letting out a deep breath, Chad finally said, "It's nice to know that some people understands how weird and reserved you can be, but still they prefer to stay." and then he smiled.
I replied with a smile. Of course he's right. Because that's how I actually felt.
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