I am REEAALLYY sorry it took me so long to update...but my charger was broke & I had to wait a WHOLE week to get a new one. Which in my defense was about to drive me crazy. That was the longest I have ever gone without using my IPod T^T SOOOO HERES A NEW UPDATE!!!! ↖️(*∩_∩*)↗️
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💋Kindaal's POV💋
"Baby I'm not making love to you." He said lowly in my ear.
"Oh." Was all I was able to get out.
I feel stupid. He led me on all the way, just when I was about to give myself to him, he says he doesn't want me. Wow. I guess I'm just a toy to him.
I felt a lump forming in my throat and I tried to gulp it down, but it wasn't working. My vision was benign blurted by my tears, which were trying to spill on my face.
"I umm, have to go to the bathroom." I said quickly rushing into the bathroom slamming the door.
"KINDAAL!..BABY!...THATS NOT WHAT I MENT!" He yelled through the door.
"It's okay Jacob. I understand you don't have to explain." My voice croaked.
"Please come out the bathroom." he begged.
"I'll be out in a second! I just have to freshen up." I yelled, sniffling quietly to myself.
30 minutes later......
"Kindaal baby I'm sorry." He apologized as I walked out of the bathroom in sweat pants and a tank top. All make up was off my face and my hair was in a messy bun, and I had on my NERD glasses.
"Jacob it's ok. You don't have to apologize anymore." I said giving a small smile.
"W-Wait b-but I'm sorry" he apologized for the second time.
"And I know." I said laughing lightly. "I'm also sorry." I said.
He gave me a confused look." For what?" He asked.
"For trusting you." I said with no emotion walking out of the room and down the stairs into the kitchen.
💋Jacob's POV💋
WOW. I really fucked up this time.
I know what you guys are thinking. Why did I just lead her on like that?!? But really, I wasn't leading her on. I just thought we were moving to fast and she wasn't ready. It was just a lust thing at the moment!
But she said 'love me' you idiot! Meaning she was ready! And now she doesn't trust your ass at all. Thanks a fucking lot!
Would you stop yelling at me please.!
I'll yell at you all I want because you ruined every damn thing! You didn't even stop to think about how sensitive she would get!
"Damn it, I did think about her feelings! And she wasn't ready!
I didn't want to make her feel like I wasn't serious when we 'did it'." I said to myself, slamming my fist against the wall.
I plopped down onto the bed dragging my hands down my face frustratedly. I fucked up. I fucked up.
Knock knock
"Yeah." I answered.
"What's going on honey?" Asked Mrs.MCcants.
"I messed up. I messed up." I repeated to myself, roughly gripping a handful of my curls.
"Jacob, what did you mess up?" she asked, rubbing my back.
"She wanted me to love her, and I told her no because I thought I was doing the right thing. I didn't think she was ready." I mumbled more to myself than anyone.
"Now what?" she asked.
"She's mad at me and now she doesn't trust me." I said sadly. "Why do I feel so guilty about a decision I thought was right?" I asked out loud.
"It's okay honey. I'll go talk to her for you." She said patting my back before getting up.
"I should take a hot shower." I said to myself.
That's exactly what I did. I turned the water on hot/warm and got in letting the hot steamy water run down my tired muscles.
W/ Kindaal & her mom...
💋Kindaal's POV💋
"Sweet heart!" yelled my mom down the hall.
"In here mommy!" I yelled back.
"Baby what's going on with you and Jacob?" she asked concerned.
"I don't trust him." I said simply, my voice cracking in the middle.
"Why not baby girl?" she asked grabbing my hands.
"He lead me on. Just when I was about to give myself to him, he tells me no. No mom! No!" I yelled. "I feel so stupid." I said to myself.
"Baby if you would of just listened to the man and not have gotten all worked up, you would know that he wasn't rejecting you." She told me.
"Than what was he doing mom?" I asked.
"He just thought you weren't ready...and I feel he made the right decision. Baby he loves you, and when it comes down to it..it's sometimes about making the right decisions." she said softly.
"Go talk to him please baby." she said nodding her head in the direction of my room.
"But mo-." She gave me a stern look. "Ok." I said sighing.
I huffed and puffed my way upstairs with an attitude, dragging my feet behind me. I really wasn't ready to apologize or even talk to him. I know what I did may of been childish, but that shit hurt. How would he feel if he was the girl and I was the man. And we were having an intimate, and than I just stop saying I didn't want him. What type of person would I be than.
I walked into the room opening the door wider and plopping down onto the bed. Jacob sat there with his big hands laying on his face.
"I'm sorry, ok. I didn't mean to make you feel like I didn't want you, because I really did. I just thought you weren't ready. It was an intimate lust moment, and I didn't want you to feel like you made the wrong decision afterwards." He explained lowly.
I made sure to listen to every word he said, and he was right. I was going to feel like a horrible person afterwards. I was going to think that I wasn't responsible enough and I was just going to feel dirty, that I so easily gave myself to him.
"Your right, and I also apologize for exaggerating. It was very un-adult-like to act that way." I apologized clasping my hands together.
"It's cool....Can I have a hug?" he asked, pulling his hands off his face and stretching his arms out.
I gave him a confused look.
"I just want to have your beautiful body close to mines. I wanna hold you.....please." He said.
I smiled mentally 'awing' to myself. That was so sweet. I pulled away some, so now we were at eye level. I smiled brightly at him placing a sweet tender kiss on his lips, brushing them softly against each other.
"Grrrr, I can never stay mad at you longer than 2 minutes." I growled playful kissing his warm cheek.
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What cha guys think? You think Jacob & Kindaal should go out now or wait a little longer and see what happens.
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