homewrecker

February

About a month into my new job things started to change for me. Though the month of February held no significant holidays (Valentine's Day means nothing when you're bitter and single) it was a rather exciting month none the less. During February is when I began hanging out with Marco.

I was working in hardware one evening when he asked for my phone number.

My heart dropped into my feet, "Why would you want my phone number?" I said eyeing him suspiciously.

"Well in case you ever wanna hang out you have to be able to get ahold of me first" he replied.

That was that same night that I had asked him to come to Jared's and hang out with the whole crew... And by whole crew I meant Jared, Will, and I.

So at around 10 p.m. That night we hear a knock on the door and there stood Marco. I couldn't believe we were actually hanging out. "So Marco what are you into?" Jared questioned him with slurred words.

There was one detail I forgot to mention, we were all hanging out at Jared's because we were all smoking weed. It's a bad habit believe me I know but I'm a teenager get over it.

"Not much really. I like working on cars and smoking" he responded.

We all laughed at the second part of his answer.

As we all enjoyed each other company time flew by. Marco and I left to get home by curfew.

"Are you okay to drive?" He asked.

"Yeah I'll be fine".

"I think I'm going to follow you anyway, just to be sure".

I nodded, "Go ahead bud do whatever you want".

And sure enough he followed me until our paths diverged.

That night we texted back and forth for a while talking about how we would hang out again soon. Suddenly his messages turned a little more flirtatious than usual. I playfully told him that I was glad he came even thought I hated him and his reply shocked me.

"Damn and I would've banged you too".

I definitely gasped out loud when I read that text. I couldn't believe he'd say something like that. I questioned him and he claimed it was all a joke but I wasn't too sure. We both decided to go to bed and talk more in the morning. We began hanging out and smoking in each other's cars. Things between us were still light with some flirtatious undertones. I could really feel myself falling for him.

One night while we were smoking in my car he took my phone from me.

"Hey no give it back!" I whined.

"Blow me" he replied casually.

"What the hell Marco give me my phone!"

He then proceeded to shove my phone down his pants, "Come get it" he grinned.

"There's no way in hell I'm reaching in your pants to get my phone" I pouted.

"Fine blow me and you can have it back".

I honestly couldn't believe what I was hearing, "Just give me the phone back Marco please" I begged.

I could tell he was loving this. He had an cynical grin on his face the whole time and even with all my pleading and begging he refused to give up my phone. He kept it in his pants until we both had to get home and he finally gave it back. I was so unnerved by the whole event I barely spoke to him.

The next few days got awkward and I didn't know how to respond or how I felt. I knew I still liked him but was that whole ordeal a way of telling me that he liked me too or was he just teasing me. I felt the best way to get the answer was to just talk to him.

"Marco... I really like you. I have no idea how you feel and maybe I'm crazy for being so upfront but it's driving me nuts that I can't read your feelings".

He didn't reply for a while until he looked at me and with uneasy words told me how he felt, "Look Sammy, you're cool and all but I don't do relationships. They always end anyway and with us working together I don't think it's a good idea" he shuffled his feet.

I wasn't too sure what to say to that.

"I totally understand" I lied.

He looked and me and then mumbled a response, "But if you want to hook up sometimes that'd be okay with me".

What did he just ask me... What did that even mean? I was so confused I thought he liked me but he just wanted me for a hook up.

"What do you mean? Like is this going to be a 'we hook up once and then you never talk to me again' kind of thing? Because I don't need that right now Marco" I snapped.

He shook his "No no I mean like a friends with benefits kind of thing, like we're friends but we hook up".

I was uneasy about accepting his offer but I live to please people and at the time I thought maybe if I pleased him enough it could lead to something more.

"Okay fine... But I have rules about what we can and can't do and you have to respect that".

And with that statement I changed who I was. With that statement I began something that would take control of my life.