Out of Focus||NaLu Lemon

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My breath hitched and let it self go violently, from panic.
Mostly embarrassing surprise.
I tried to look away from him, not entirely ready to see what was about to happen.

My lips quivered and my body tensed, I knew he could just slip it inside, but that would be so painful for me.
So when he untied my hands and ordered me to get on my knees, I didn't know if I should be relieved or even more mortified— He didn't give me a choice.

Without even trying, he was using my fears to break down my defense, because a sick part of me trusted him a little more for sparing me some pain and has always had this trust.
The part that had been his best friend and companion for 3 years now and them some.
My fear of what this first time would be like.
To add on— I cringed —I'm unbearably frustrated.

I had never done this before, a virgin, something I should be proud of?

When his eyes flared up as he looked at me, I felt my face boil, dropping my eyes to stare at what was in front of me.

His cock stood erect as I ran my fingers over the tip, carefully kissing the along the sides. He growled under his breath, his head tipping back. I pulled my mouth over it after pumping at him for some time, bringing myself to run my tongue over.
He cussed profanities. Couldn't keep his hips still when he gripped me head to fit more inside.

I lost my breath at times, and when I was done I ended up not being able to swallow any, and I didn't plan to. Instead it splattered onto my chest.

Natsu had turned into a blushing mess, his pants hanging onto his waist and his hair was sweaty, breathing heavily with his teeth glinting.

He seemed pleased, a smirk spreading to his face as he stepped closer to me.

He held onto my wrist and captured my mouth, gripping my ass to slowly push me into the mattress.
My head almost hit the headboard as he got on his knees in front of me.
Throwing one of my legs over his broad shoulders, without a second thought he slammed himself into me, making me cry out and hide my face. His arm reached over my head to grip the bed's headboard as he began riding into me.

My legs closed against his waist without my permission to bring him deeper,"Natsu..!"

My breast bounced with his every movement, and I could hear the daunting sound of my bed banging into the wall.

I found myself looking into his face when I could open my eyes, my fingertips ripping into his back as he groaned and panted from the haze of sex.

"..Lucy.."

My body was on fire, from his abnormal body heat, and the rough sex.

I heard the dramatic slapping sound of our intercourse from between my legs, one of his arms held onto the head board while another held me in place by one thigh.

Gasping into his shoulder when he pulled back and slammed it all the way back in, I tasted blood in my mouth.

My back began to arch, moaning from the overwhelming pleasure, my high began to build-up.

I came hard, squeezing him tighter and pulsating around him making him come into me from the new pressure.

He fell beside me, giving me a moment to breath.
A minute turned into what felt like a silent hour.

Earnestly, he ran his hand along my arm, hugging me closer and rolling over to rest on his chest.

He chuckled, trying to steady his breath, and I wasn't sure what to say.
"T-That was.."
"Fucking amazing?"

".. I- that my first time.."

I felt him tense from underneath me, the first bit of nervousness Ive seen him show since this all started.

"Natsu. Can I ask you one question?," I sighed,"We can never take any of that back.."

He nodded, his chin rubbing into my head.

"Was any of it sincere?"

"I wouldn't have done it if it wasn't," He uttered putting an arm behind his head,"Besides, that was my first time too." He mumbled.

I felt queasy at his words, like they rubbed me the wrong way. His first time. Mine.

I closed my legs tighter.

Another side was confused, If that was his first time then compared to that, how exactly were it to be like if we ever did this again..?

I didn't know what to make of that.

Both of us were exhausted, and then a thought occurred to me, something that fled my mind the moment he walked through the door.

"You scared me Natsu.." I felt vulnerable, I was obviously, but so were my words,"That day. When our team was investigating the kidnappings? You scared the hell out of me.."

He fell silent, closing his eyes tightly like something was bothering him in a dream.

So I continued,"I freaked out a-and avoided you?"
I don't know why I made it sound like a question.
I needed a reaction to feel satisfied.

"I..", Natsu looked like he was struggling. Tilting my head up, I propped my elbow to see him.

"I.. Don't remember anything.. After Loke came out of nowhere." He said sucking in a breath.

"Really?"

"Just red."

"Like.." My eyes widened,"The color?"

"I feel like it had to do with something like this.." He waved a hand in front of him.

Me? Dragon Season? So how am I suppose to find the word for that?
Territorial?

Feeling my cheeks heat, I looked away for a moment thinking about what I just heard.

"Sorry."

"About this?" I said waving my hand in front of me in the same manner.

Shit! I sound upset. I need to calm down.

"About whatever I did in that memory gap. You were avoiding me because of it right?"

"I'll forgive you Natsu, but don't do that again. Ever." I was mentally slapping myself,"I-I'm exhausted, lets go to bed Natsu."

I was surprised he hadn't cracked a dirty joke, or kissed me again or something.

But I had ruined the mood all on my own.

I would feel it in the morning.

"Is there a guarantee of.. A pregnancy?"

"Yeah, pretty sure." He hid himself under the covers as if their whole lives did not just get pulverized and altered and they now had an entire future together.

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