My Story

The First One

It was the actual first day of school. Between not getting lost to making friends, I was stressed out. By this time, I knew a couple of people. One of my friends was named Sean. He was a saxophone player, and him along with Caroline and John were my three friends. John and Sean introduced me to a lot of people.

One of these people was a guy named Carter. I immediately thought that he was really nice, and he was funny. He was pretty childish, but i did not pay much attention to that. I though he was cute, although that was not popular opinion.

We started flirting, and texting all the time. And soon enough we started dating. We hung out whenever we could in school. We would meet up so that he could walk me to my classes. We would hold hands walking down the hallway, and he would put his arm over my shoulder in the auditorium.

And everything was good for a while. I thought I was happy, I thought that we were good.

Then slowly, he started drifting, hanging out with other people more than he ever talked to me. He would plan to meet up and then he would run off with his best friend Eric. They would be really immature and I wouldn't even get to hang out with him.

And then there was homecoming. Because we were dating, Carter had asked me to go to homecoming with him. I was happy, but I don't like parties. I tend to have panic attacks when I am in a small space with a lot of people. But for him I went, and at first it wasn't too bad. I had friends there, and we got to hang out. But then Carter left.

He started running around with Eric. We was dancing with other girls. He was completely ignoring me the whole night. That night I had a massive panic attack. And he wasn't there to help me. I managed to get over it, and I hung out with Eric's then girlfriend, who had also been ditched. It was not a good night for me. But i had almost forgiven him.

Then it got worse. Everyday I would walk to our group area and there would be another girl sitting on his lap. At first it didn't bother me that much. But then at one point I was talking to one of my other guy friends, and Carter was so jealous. And I couldn't handle it any more.

So I broke up with him. he was too immature, and he wasn't ready for a girlfriend. He was my first real boyfriend, although it lasted maybe two months. I was too in love with Shaunice to really try with this relationship. So that was it. We were done.