Standing Alone

Chapter 4: Her

So it was a bit after I came out to my mom that I REALLY met Rose. About two or three weeks, if I had to guess. See I knew who she was. I remember the first day of our choir class, seeing her walk in and my jaw hit the floor. We locked eyes and in that moment I disappeared i melted intonher gaze, she was so beautiful but it was a feeling that I had never felt before. I had this sudden determination to be with her. Now we had this class together but I was originally assigned to a different section then hers. I was an alto, so basically mid level voice tone. She was a soprano, high voice tones. So she sat like 5 seats away from me and after class I just never had the guts to talk to her. Then one day I sung the soprano part and so our teacher moved me into that section. I sat right next to her! I was so embarrassed and nervous but I pushed through it and started talking to her. I mentioned how I was transgender a few times to show her I was a part of the LGBT community and yo see her views on that sort of stiff. That got her to tell me she was bisexual. I thought, perfect she likes girls and guys and at the moment I have a girl body and a boy mind. We became pretty good friends, already I felt I could tell her everything and I believed she felt the same. Then one night I was texting Rose and my best friend Kaitleyn, and Kaitleyn mentioned how she was texting Rose! I was so surprised and when my friend told me that Rose said she had a crush on me, I was just ecstatic. My crush has a crush on me, how likely is that, thats insane. Kaitleyn asked if she could tell her that I liked her and I gave the okay. So I'm texting Rose and we kind of get on the topic of how we like each other and so... I asked her out, and she said yeah! Do you know how rare it is to date your crush? It's very rare, and I am doing it, and she is so beautiful and amazing. I can't believe I got her. Like I mentioned previously she was okay with me being trans and wanted to date me and support me anyways and that made everything so much easier and better. Like a weight was lifted from shoulders. I feel like the luckiest person in the world. I found someone beautiful, kind, honest, incredible, smart, talented, and someone who wasn't with me for my body but my personality. She's someone who just wants to be with me and I just want to be with her. I think one of the coolest things about our relationship was that I wasn't out as trans yet at school so to the people at school we were basically the only openly gay couple. That was terrifying. I was always nervous to ask her out for multiple reasons, like the obvious fear of rejection and all of that great stuff, but the biggest problem for me was fear that the kids at school would be cruel. Throw things, call names, and just be mean, ya know. People are so mean even to kids and kids are even more cruel. It sucks, being afraid to like the people you want and be with the people you want. The biggest thing I learned from our relationship was that some people are worth the name calling, the stares, the rude comments, and just the bullying. Some people are worth fighting for, you just have to find the right person. Thats when you know you're in love, I love her.