"I will never forget you. You will always be by my side. Till the day I die..."
H- I hoped you'd always be by my side, but at this point I have realized that's highly unlikely. Maybe one day we will be better. Be friends. Be the way we once were. But for now, this is the way things will have to remain.
K- ... ok...
I sit in my room on the edge of my bed knowing eventually I will regret this, but right now it's the best choice for the best of us. Kylee and I have just grown apart, it happens to the best of friends. After arguing with Kylee for about twenty minutes, I end everything. And by everything, I more specifically mean our friendship... I listen to the song, Never Forget You on repeat for about 1/2 hour before I decide I need to go out and take care of my horses. Just because I'm having a horrible day, doesn't mean that I can skip out on taking care of them.
I am greeted with whinny's from all of my horses as soon as I open the door to my barn. Since we live in Montana and the weather is quite unpredictable, all of our barns, except for our large 24 stall barn with an indoor arena for boarded horses and our lesson horses and ponies, have an air conditioning system as well as a heating system to make sure our show and performance horses remain comfortable. I decide to get one of my yearlings, Montana Sky, out of the pen to work on some ground work and desensitization. I always make sure the first thing I do when training a horse after intense ground work is desensitizing so that they won't be spooky with anything and so I can be more focused on training and less on what things this specific horse is going to be spooky around.
When I work with my yearlings and green horses, I only work with them in small increments, so they aren't overwhelmed with everything.
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When I'm done working with Montana Sky, I get out my rodeo horse and go for a trail ride to get my mind off of everything that's been happening lately. Eirik and I broke up shortly after our two months of being together, me and Kylee aren't friends anymore, all I do is fight with my brothers, Tailor has been so busy that we don't talk anymore, and even my relationship with my parents has gone downhill.. since summer vacation began I turned 17, lost all my friends, pushed all my family away, and haven't been around anybody but my horses and Harley. I've gone to several events, and am currently standing 4th in the rodeo circuit, and 1st in all around showing, which means I am on track to make it to the AQHA world show in both things, but now I'm not sure if I even want to compete...
