K- Things change. I can't tell you why and I can't tell you what will happen but I can tell you, it's good. It's whatever we make of it and I want you there with me as it happens.
H- Not all change is good Kylee. Especially not this change.
Lately it seems like all we do is fight. There have hardly been any good days for the last few weeks. School is out so I've had alot more time to devote myself to my horses, and Kylee has had alot more time to devote herself to Jakob. I get it, he makes her happy which is a good thing but lately I've been completely replaced. I do as much as I can for her, but she sees it as me never doing enough... With my work and training I've decided to just focus on what I need to get done to become a better rider and trainer. My relationship with Eirik is so amazing. He really makes everything better. Even when he isn't around he is the sweetest guy ever. We've been together for a month and everything is going strong. My relationship with everyone else is kinda rocky... Kylee and I have done more fighting in this last month than I've ever done with anyone else. Tailor has been super busy so I've hardly talked to her, my parents are getting a lot rougher on me to do better at everything, and even Jordyn has started drifting away. My world has began crashing down and the only thing standing is my relationships with Eirik and my horses. It almost seems too bad to be true. Like it's an awful nightmare that I will wake up from any second but I can't. I'm trapped and have nowhere to go. No one to go to besides Eirik but I don't wanna put all this on him in case he feels too overwhelmed with it and leaves, so I keep it all in. I don't let anyone know what's bugging me and I just pretend to be my normal happy self.
