In The Life Of A Killer

Chapter 12

Jamie had come in to explain that Jeremy's taxi was waiting outside and that he hadn't heard much at all. Thank God! I said goodbye to Jer and wandered back to my room, obviously getting lost a few times on the way. Why had I been so stupid! Why did I agree to practice with Jeremy? What on earth was I thinking? Well more importantly what is Jamie thinking? He didn't exactly explain how much he had heard, he just shrugged and said that he had listened to around thirty seconds and most of those thirty seconds were spent with Jer's mouth on mine.

I decided that I was way to embarrassed to go and talk to Jamie. This is one of those times where u lie in bed and try to blame everyone and everything else for your mistake. My mind raced through questions and blaming statements such as 'Why the hell was Jamie even there?' Well the answer to that was because he was being kind and came to tell Jer the taxi was here. Then I thought to myself that it was Jer's fault for even coming here in the first place seeing as I didn't need him or want him. I was perfectly happy with Jamie but even though I tried passing the blame onto Jeremy, it still didn't work. As I did want to see Jer and it was nice to see a familiar face before I start a new school where I know no one.

I continued to lie on my bed, put in my headphones and blasted some Years & Years. Even that didn't make me feel better. To take my mind off all the things that were happening, I thought I would start reading 'All The Bright Places' while still listening to music. Yes, I know I'm weird, I listen to music and read at the same time.

I got to page one hundred and fifty three, when I heard a quick knock on my door. Oh God. That means Jamie had come to talk to me about earlier. Should I just ignore it and hopes he goes away? Then I heard his door shut almost immediately after the knock so I decided it was safe to go out as I was curious as to way he had...

As I opened the door, I looked down and saw one of those platter things with the silver top lid thing; you know the ones they have in hotels and fancy restaurants. It was on a tray with a black rose in a small vase and a little note on top. The note said 'Hey, here's some dinner.' That was it. I took the tray into my room and took the lid thing off. To my surprise it was pretty simple. Just a few chicken satay sticks and egg fried rice but for some reason I was craving that. It must have something to do with him wittering on about an SO.

Even after everything, Jamie was still so sweet. I decided I was going to tell him what had happened but I would tell him when he came to me. I can't wait till he comes to me.