Love and Trust (Camila/You)

20.

Camila's POV
My phone dinged for like the millionth time this week. Y/n has been texting and calling me since we broke up a week ago but I haven't answered her. I couldn't.

My heart was broken. I wanted to believe her I truly did. My heart was saying believe her, take her back. But my head kept telling me she was just no good for me.

I didn't know what to do, I didn't know who to listen to. I just wanted the pain to go away.

I heard knocking on my bedroom door, I looked up at my door just as it opened and in stepped all of the girls.

My best friends walked over to my bed and climbed in beside me. Dinah wrapped her arms around me and pulled me closer to her. I buried my face in her chest. I felt Lauren place her arm over my waist and rest her chin on my shoulder. I felt two hands on my thighs knowing it was Normani and Ally.

We sat in silence as I once again cried my eyes out. I didn't think I had anymore tears left to cry but apparently I did. My phone rang again, this time I knew Y/n was calling me since the ringer was longer.

"She still calling?" Lauren asked me quietly and I nodded my head.

"Calling, texting, indirectly tweeting. I just want it to stop," I said as I turned my head from Dinah's chest so I could look at the girls who were giving me looks of sympathy.

"Haven't you thought about just hearing her out, Mila?" Ally asked me as she rubbed my thigh.

"I don't want to hear her excuses. I went through this before with Austin, remember? And he always had an excuse but always kept doing it. I don't want to be hurt again," I said.

"Y/n isn't like that, Mila. You know that. I'm not saying what she did was okay but I'm sure she has a reason," Dinah said.

"You say this like you've talked to her," I said, rolling my eyes. My four best friends were silent, I sat up quickly, causing my head to bump into Dinah's and Lauren's head to fall onto my pillows.

"You talked to her?!" I asked them incredulously.

"We just wanted to hear her side of the story. She's our friend too, Camz. We know her. We just wanted to know why she should cheat on you because it's not something she would do," Lauren said as she sat up looking at me.

"She cheated! Shouldn't that be all that matters?! She cheated on me! She kissed someone else...her ex of all people!"

"But she didn't cheat on you on purpose," Normani quickly butted on. I scoffed.

"Like you can cheat on someone by accident," I said, crossing my arms over my chest,"Get out."

"Camila,-" Ally started.

"Get out! I don't need the comfort of friends who would take the side of my ex over me after she cheated on me. Why don't you go comfort Y/n."

"Camz, don't be like that."

"But, Mila,-" Dinah started.

"Out now!!"

The girls all reluctantly stood up and walked out of my room. I laid back on my bed and covered my eyes with my arms. My phone dinged again. I groaned and grabbed my phone. I opened it to see a bunch of texts from Y/n.

Y/n: Camila, please.

Y/n: you have to hear me out, Cam.

Y/n: you can't just ignore me.

Me: watch me.

Y/n: ha! You're talking to me

Me: only because you keep blowing my phone up. And I'm here to tell you to stop before I block you. I'm don't forgiving you, Y/n. Im done with the pain. So just leave me alone

Y/n:if you wanted me to leave you alone you would have blocked me by now.

God why was she always right? I don't want her to leave me alone. I want her to fight for me. I want her to tell me she loves me, to tell me she needs me. My heart ached for her but my mind keeps telling me and my heart to let her go before she breaks us.

Me: I do want you to leave me alone.

Y/n: well I'm not going to leave you alone. So I guess you'll have to block me

Y/n:I'm not letting you walk out of my life Camila. I love you. I'm so deeply in love with you that it physically hurts me to know I've hurt you. And I'm sorry. God, Cam I'm so sorry. I didn't think. I didn't mean to. She kissed me and I admit I kissed her back but I was getting ready to push her away as soon as you walked in. Please believe me, Camila. I need you in my life. Please.

Me: All I wanted was for us to be together. Maybe get married, have a few kids, maybe even get a puppy. I saw a future for us. And then I saw your lips on hers and all I could see from then on was nothing. You broke my heart. I loved you, fuck I still love you and honestly I don't think I'll ever stop loving you, but I can't do this. I can't.

Y/n: I'm not going to give up, Camila. I'll keep fighting for you. I'll fight for you until I die. Because I love you Karla Camila Cabello Estrabao. So don't think i'm giving up.

Me: Goodbye, Y/n.
This Number Has Been Blocked From Your Phone.

I looked at my phone as a tear fell from my eye and onto the screen. I closed my phone and tossed it to the side. I threw myself back and let out a shaky sob.