Bad to better; a Janiel fanfic

My life

(I know I haven't been posting and I'm really sorry, but I'll try harder I promise.)

Hey guys, I just need to vent.....
My mom is extremely light, about 105 pounds, she drinks about a bottle of wine a night.
For some odd reason it has waited this long to  fully affect me. I don't even know if that falls under the category of alcoholic, but I don't like it. She has picked me up from bar mitzvahs and school events tipsy, she comes in to my room at night crying about something my father has said or done or is. She is easily triggered or ticked off, and she is a lot more physical, (she'll hit me and my brother upside the head a stuff.) When she isn't even drunk she thinks I'm going through a phase or that I'm lying about my sexuality. (Bisexual or lesbian) so she won't let me come out to anyone, this includes my dad my friends, and just about anyone else.

My father is out of the house 70% of the time that he's actually in town, the other 30% he is on the phone. He also drinks quite a bit. (Not like my mom tho) he makes cruel jokes and I feel like he hates the lgbtq+ community. The other day at lunch he made a comment to my brother saying "don't be gay or you'll get yourself killed." Referring to the tragedy that happened in Orlando Florida. I looked at him in disbelief, This hit me hard, I feel so connected to what happened and that just tore me down. I looked at him in the eyes and shook my head slowly. "What?" He said, he still has no clue. I didn't talk until the end of the meal. I couldn't. That was the 2nd worse meal I had with my family, this first was when they neglected me at my own birthday dinner.

My brother is just another annoying little brother, but he lies. He's lied about me putting mouse traps in his bed, he's taken money from me, and so much more. Also in further attempts to be cool, he told all his little friends that I'm bi or lesbian, and started making fun of me for it.

I'm sorry I just needed to get this out. I'll try to post soon.😌