Smile The Pain Away...

Chapter 13 : Bottled Feelings

Aaron

"Babe its 3 in the Morning come to bed" Melissa said peeking in my office. I rubbed my face as few tears fell yet I was still angry, I’m sad that Erica gone but after finding out what she put my daughter though I would’ve killed her my damn self.  

"I can’t right now.. I’m fucking conf— just go to sleep mel" I said shooing her out but instead she took a seat in front of me leaning on my desk.

"What’s the matter Aaron? Remember you can tell me" she said caring.

"Erica." I mumbled, her name taste like venom on my tongue. All I wanted to do is spit it out. I could sense Melissa rolling her eyes. She never like Erica, I don’t even like Erica my damn self. After she had Eliza we drifted apart. I took my part in my daughter life while she ran the streets I guess that’s where she found that nasty son of a bitch she calmed to be her husband. Our history was tragic. Something I don’t want to relive nor retell. The best thing that came out of that relationship was Eliza. Only if I kept up with argument to have full custody of her, she could’ve had a better life.

a pain free life.

"What about her?" She questioned.

“Mom… she committed suicide” Eliza words replayed my mind. Then the call I received from my friend Myles, who’s a detective telling me the same. I wish Erica was still alive right now so I could give her the standing ovation she deserves. What a pussy move? Killing yourself because you didn’t want to face consequences because your the main reason why your daughter suffered from hell.  My daughter As well, I felt like I let Eliza down I was suppose to be there and keep her safe. But instead, I seen her occasionally only if Erica didn’t want her at the moment.

Mel pushed my shoulder lightly trying to get my attention. I glared at her in a confused manner, I didn’t want to take my anger out on her. She doesn’t deserve that especially from her fiancé. She’s pregnant after, I don’t wanna put my stressfulness on her even though she has nothing to be stress about.

"Aaron what about Eliza mother?" She questioned once again, I sighed lowly.

"She killed herself." I laughed. It was indeed funny, because she’s a pussy to end her own life.  

"And you think that’s funny Aaron? That terrible!" Melissa scolded as if I was a child.

"Because she’s a fucking pussy.. that was a pussy move. What kind of shit what kind of fuck up mind do she have?" I went on.

"What happened?"

I wanted to say something but it brought anger into me again.

I looked over my desk.. papers…folder… tape recorder..m ah ha!  I picked up the tape recorder holding it in my hands. How did that fucker record her?

"What’s that ba-"

"Eliza found this..in her attic. I assume this was taped almost five years ago " I said replaying the tape. I cringe to the sound of Erica voice.

As the tape ended, Melissa covered her mouth in disgust. “Thats awful.. hows eliza?’

How was Eliza? What was her reaction.. how did this affect her?

"She was calm when she gave it to me, and she was calm when she found out her mother committed suicide. I don’t know,"  

"I’ll go che-"

"Mel. Go to bed I know eliza is asleep, ill talk to her tomorrow."

She sighed and gave me a kiss I returned it and rubbed her stomach. “I love you two”