No One Cares

Part 2

Surprisseee! This is an extra update, just for you guys xx
I'm starting to upload for real in September I guess, so be patient! :)
Xxx itsniallerr
2 July 2016
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18th of March, 2012

Hi,

Again a horrible nightmare.

It's been a nightmare since my audition on the X-Factor.

We performed again last night. People literally threw stuff to my head, a girl called me ugly.

I just literally cried my eyes out. On stage.

My mum always told me that big boys don't cry, but I guess they do.

Luckily, Zayn was there, he hugged me and tried to calm me down. Took quite a while.

When I walked into my hotel room, I burst out crying again. Because I was embarrassed and I'm scared that what they say, that it's true. That I just really don't deserve to be here.

Something made me stand up and walk over to the bathroom.

I made a cut in my wrist. Only one.

But it felt good.

It feels like I sealed my worthlessness right now, cause I'm a nothing.

I deserve the pain.

I hate myself.

Niall.