i couldn't deal with presser and i didn't want to get out of my comfort zone...but i just couldn't take it...so i left...i ranaway i hitched a ride and got to Cali...i didn't know why there but all i knew is i wanted to be there i walk for and hour once i got there and the rain fell is was pooring...i sat down on the ground and cried...the image of my dad and mom telling me"Grow Up Alicia" and i screamed "SHUT UP!SHUT UP!SHUT UP!!!"i yelled and i cried"I DIDN'T WANT TO DO THIS!!!I JUST WANTED TO BE ON MY COMPUTER AND LEFT ALONE!!!"i yelled and i cried more..."whats wrong?"a guy said to me...i didn't look up"i was forced to get out of my comfort zone"i said and i guessed the guy had an umbrella because it was put over me"thanks"i said"i was forced to get out of my comfort zone too"the guy said"but i forced myself..."he said and then i felt him sitting with me and he closed the umbrella and i looked at him he was a skater boy looking guy...but i don't think he skates...he has long hair that covers his ears a little his earlobe was stretched...he had purple skinny jeans and a purple and gray striped shirt on a purple beanie on his head...he was a white boy with blue/green eyes...he was handsome to me..."so whats your story"he said and looked at me"i'm an 18 year old girl with no life but on the computer"i said"well we are not that different...i'm a 21 year old guy who stays locked in his room making videos on youtube but lately i haven't done that because i'm insecure and depressed"he said and smiled and laughed"that's no funny"i said"i know,i know...it's just....a habit...i laugh at my own patheticness ...its just easier"he said and he was looking down"i also a twitter whore and tumbler whore too"he said and laughed a little"well i write stories about Justin bieber and me or Ross lynch and me living happily ever after"i said and laughed at it"that's really sad"i said"does it feel better when you laugh at it"he said and i smiled"yeah a little"i said and it was still raining but not as hard..we were soaked to the bone"so where do you live?"he said"Florida"i said"really i live there too"he said..."i ran away...i couldn't handle the presser...from my dad....he wants me to grow up so fast..."i said"i rather die here in this crap hole to see the disappointment in his eyes again"i said"yeah...my mom is real nice to me she raised me when my dad left me...but she doesn't see the way i am when she's not looking...she doesn't see how much pain i am in...i hate myself i hate everything i see when i look in the mirror all i see is...flaws my pimples my face everything...sometime i wish.....sometimes i wish i can die too"he said and i felt his words like i'm talking to myself right in front of me all these feelings he has i have too"it sucks!!"he said and i looked at him"i feel the same way....your like me but with a penis"i said and then i realized that was a little to much"umm...sorry that came out wrong"i said"no..."he said and laughed a little"your right....and your like me but with a vagina"he said and i laughed"so whats your name?"i said"i'm Damon..."he said and i smiled"i'm Alicia...but call me Aly"i said and he smiled"nice to meet you Aly"he said and let out his hand and he looked at me"come with me"he said"are you shore"i said"yeah"he said and i grabbed his hand
and we left together......
