Different - a Niall Horan love story

Chapter 13

It’s been a little bit awkward since me and Niall kissed last night which is exactly 14 hours ago now. I’m kind of avoiding him, mostly because I don’t know what to do. It’s so not right to fall in love with him, and that, euhm kiss, surely didn’t help. Maybe I should just ignore him for a day or two ? Or is that wrong ? I don’t know. What I do know is that Harry for sure knows what’s up, so Louis probably knows too, but Liam and Zayn don’t. They’ve been wondering the whole morning what’s wrong though.

I need a girl talk. Right now. I walk out the bus while I take my phone and dial Lore’s number.

‘Hey Eline !’ she screams into her phone.

‘Hey, are you busy right now ?’ I ask, making sure I’m not bothering her or something.

‘Nah, not at all. What’s up ?’ she asks.

‘I’m making a total mess over here.’

‘What did you do ?’ she sounds concerned right now.

‘I kind of kissed Niall last night …’

‘You what ?! Oh my god, Eline that’s amazing ! I knew you two would get together !’ she screams, happy now.

‘No ! Lore, you’re so not helping right now ! I can’t be in love with him.’

‘Why not ?’

‘You know why.’ I say seriously.

‘You have to get over it, you know. You can’t let what happened to Amber influence your life. It was their choice.’ she answers, also serious now.

‘Yeah, I can. She committed suicide because she had to break up with him because of his management ! You know what she had to go through after they broke up !’ I cry.

‘You don’t know if that’s going to happen to you too !’

‘That doesn’t even matter ! He’s still famous, it could happen.’ My voice disappears at the end of the sentence, thinking about what happened to Amber.

‘You don’t know that.’ She lowers her voice too while saying that. She and Taylor both know the story about Amber, so I guess she is thinking about that too.

‘Yeah …’ I say, crying now.

‘You should give it a chance, though. You’re stronger and you know that.’

‘I’ll think about it. Thank you, Lore. I love you !’

‘I love you too ! Good luck girl.’

‘Thanks.’ I say before leaving the call. Is she right ? Should I give it a chance ? I don’t know, it’s so complicated. I drop my head in my hands.

‘That’s why you’ve been avoiding me all morning and most of the afternoon ?’ I hear an Irish voice say softly. I turn around in chock, tears still on my face. He looks at me before I turn around and run off. I hear his footsteps following behind me, while I run and cry at the same time, not knowing where I’m going. Since we’re still parked at the venue, I enter the building and run to the dressing room, where Niall catches up with me. ‘Eline, please.’ he says, grabbing me by my arm.

‘No, Niall. Leave me alone.’ I say, not daring to look up at him since I’m on the verge of breaking down.

‘Eline, talk to me.” he pleads. I pull my arm loose, turning around and running away from him again, new tears leaving my eyes. I hear Niall running after me again, but it doesn’t take him that long to catch up with me this time. When he’s beside me, he stops me and presses my body against the wall with his. He puts both his hands on either side of my head while he’s breathing heavily. I’m still not looking him in the eyes, I don’t want him to know how hurt I am, and since you can read my eyes so easily … Yeah.