Things unsaid... (A diary)

Everything that i don't want to teLl you.

I don't know if I'm exaggerating or something but every time i remember everything you did in the past it makes me want to tell you that I don't want to be with you anymore.
It still hurts that you cheated on me when i loved you the most. And what drives me mad is that you even complain about how am i treating you when you deserve people treat you like shit, because you only used people just to don't be alone because you're afraid of being alone and you would have ended up alone if i would have told you everything. YOU DESERVE NOTHING.
I really hate how you used to treat me, as if i was the only fool that ALWAYS was there for you. I'm sure i am the only one that got hurt in an amount that no one ever wants to be hurt. But, you know what? I'm kinda thankful that you did that because i learned many things, i grew strong, i'm now the strong woman i am thanks to all the bullshit you did to me.
And i really hope that you realize the kind of woman you're dating now, because you deserve much less than that, and she loves you more than anything, you should give her the whole world and that's even less than she deserves.
You treated her like shit, like a doll, you played with her like a game you would always win, but now she knows every single one of your moves, one more shit you do and you lose her, because she has a lot of men at her feet, and she knows it, and anyway she STILL loves you.
She won't forgive any of your nasty shits, even after the two of you already fucked, she's still hurt, she could be revengeful with you if she wanted, she is rude, even if she's not with you, she treats anyone else like crap and that's something you have to appreciate.
She's a queen and you're a jerk.