Shawn's POV
As I'm sitting on my bed staring at myself in the mirror I can't help but think of the terrible thing I just did. Why? Why did I kiss Taylor? This is just going to ruin our friend ship. I'm not gay.. I can't be. My parent would kill me. They're so religious I feel like they'd stone me.
*knock knock*
"who is it?" I ask letting out a sigh.
"It's Taylor." He says.
I jump up a little. Why didn't he leave? What's he doing here? Why did he come up? I can't see him. Not after what I just did.
"Um I'm naked don't come in." I say trying to make an accuse for him not to walk in.
"Shawn I've seen you naked. Let me come in." He says.
I get up and open the door. I kept my head down looking at the floor is disappointment.
Taylor's POV
I look at Shawn. He looks so sad. My poor baby boy. I just want to hug him and tell him everything's alright but I don't want to ruin everything.
I walk to his bed and sit down. He does the same.
"Shawn why did you kiss me?" I ask quietly. If his parents heard they'd kill him within a second no questions asked.
"I-I don't know. I was confused ok? I thought I was being jealous over you because I liked you but I know now that it's because you're my best friend and I just want what's best for you." He says in one breath.
"So you don't like me at all?" I ask.
"No of course not. That's a sin..." He says looking out his door.
"Shawn you know you can tell me anything you want. I won't judge you. We've been best friends since as long as I can remember and I wouldn't ditch you because you are different. I hope you feel the same about that." I say.
"Yeah I wouldn't do that to you but no, I'm positive I'm straight. I like Lauren. In fact, I-I'm going on a date with her tomorrow night to patch up everything from tonight,and maybe you should do the same with Ashley." He says.
"Yeah maybe. But she's not really my type. I rather go out and find someone who is than go out with her." I say kind of rudely and get up and walk out of his room into the bathroom.
I can't believe after what happened tonight he still doesn't have the courage to admit that he loves me. I know he does. He would kiss me if he was straight and he wouldn't have thought he liked me if he was straight. His parent have him blinded. I need Shawn to see that he loves me and wants to be with me. Oh I sound psycho.
I need some advice. I need to get out. I need to go out with someone so I can make sure I am gay..
I look down at my phone and remember that my cousin Lisa is a lesbian. Ha, she's crazy but she'll know what to do.
Me: hey Lisa! I need some advice/help!
Lisa: have you finally come out? ((:
Me: what!! How did you know?
Lisa: it's my gaydar. It's A1. Just tell me what's up! I'm sure I can help you out.
Me: well I need help in knowing that I am for sure gay. Because I've never been with a guy... But I've kissed one...
Lisa: was it Shawn!!!!
Me: what? Ok have you been stalking me???
Lisa: I've seen the way you are with him and the way he is with you. You're clearly in love.
Me: I am. He isn't. Which confuses me because he kissed me.
Lisa: oh sweetie, some people just don't know as well as others that they're for sure gay. He's confused and doesn't know what to do with those feelings.
Me: well I'm confused too. I need to go out with a guy. On a date. A real date. Anyone in mind?
Lisa: I know this one guy. His name is Nash. Here's a pic.
Me: wow I love his eyes. Yeah sure! Set it up!
I'm so glad I decided to do this. I can't wait for my date. This guy is good looking and I bet he's also so interesting. Before I do anything I have to tell Shawn I'm gay. He has to know.
I get out of the bathroom and walk to Shawn's room again. I open the door to him with his head in his hands.
"Hey Shawn. I have something to tell you, it's hard to say but I want to say it because you're my best friend and I know I can trust that you'll always be my friend... Right?" I ask shyly.
"Of course Taylor. What is it?" He says.
"I'm... Well I don't know for sure but... I ... I think ... Um ... I'm gay. I'm going on a date tomorrow with this guy since I've never really been with one but deep down I've never felt right with girls." I say.
In the moment I felt scared and nervous and happy all at one. I'm happy I finally told him but I don't know what it's going to do for our relationship.
"You're gay? You? Bad boy? The guy every girl wants? Wow. Well I have to say that's shocking. Oh... Oh I kissed you. I hope you don't thi---" I interrupt him.
"Oh oh no no no. It just made me realize I can't pretend anymore. Thanks Shawn for understanding. I should go now." I say walking out of his room.
I get into my car and just sit there for awhile. I know it's great to get all of that out but Shawn said to be that he doesn't like me and it kills me. I just hope my date with Nash tomorrow goes well.
Something big I feel it happening. My life is about to change for the better. I thought my life was over but now it's going to be even more amazing than ever.
When I get home I get my clothes ready for my date wth Nash tomorrow. I feel so amazing! I lay down on my bed and begin to think of what's in store for me. Now that I'm out to the most important person in my life I can finally be myself.
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Introducing Nash is awesome! He's so great. I love him. But will shaylor ever happen )): I sure hope so.
- me 💖💖💖💖💖💖

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