Under the Stars

Chapter seventeen

IM BACK. My finals are starting tomorrow and then summer starts on Thursday. I'm so fucking terrified of my algebra II final because my teacher gave us like two pages of prep the Friday before finals and he keeps saying he's sure I'll pass when I HAVE A FUCKING D IN THE CLASS. LIKE, MATE, I WOULD PROBABLY HAVE NO FUCKING CLUE WHAT IM DOING IN THE DAMN FINAL AND FAIL BECAUSE YOU WONT GIVE US MORE THAN TWO PAGES OF PREP. JESUS CHRIST, IM FUCKED. ROYALLY FUCKED. THERE GOES GRADUATING IN FOUR YEARS.
Moving on. New chapter! Yay! Enjoy!
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We are only strong to a certain point. We can only bend so far before we break
~ anonymous
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It was the day before they left for home and James could clearly see there was something wrong between Teddy and Victoire. They never talked anymore or spent time together, and when their eyes met by passing, they'd look away quickly. James knew it was stupid but could those two be fighting, maybe he had a chance. A stupid thought, considering Teddy being straight and all, but a guy can hope.
"James! There you are!"
James slowed down his walk to the courtyard to let Teddy catch up with him.
"Are you ready to go home?" Teddy was grinning James' favourite smile, that wide, crooked one that showed all his teeth.
"Yeah. Although mum is probably going to kill me for that prank on Slytherin's. Detention for a month with McGonagall of all people. How does that woman have time to spend watching my detentions if she's the bloody headmistress?"
Teddy laughed.
"I suppose she sets aside a special time for you. You know she finds the jokes funny even if she punishes you for it."
"But it was your idea!"
"Yes, but I'm the head boy, so she can't punish me as much. I got a warning letter though."
James glared at him.
"Oh boy! A letter! I got a month of cleaning up old textbooks and making sure they're 'in working condition' so students can use them! If I have to see another textbook, I'll scream."
"Good thing classes are over, then." Teddy joked cheerfully.
James smiled at him. Although it still was uncomfortable to be alone with Teddy, it had become easier, since Teddy was clearly fighting with Victoire. It was easier not to feel like he was being stabbed, and more that he had a bunch of paper cuts in his heart. Though it wasn't much better, it was enough for James to try.
James glanced around the courtyard. The courtyard looked beautiful during this time of year, frost and snow covered the area, making it glitter under the stars and moon. It was times he spent walking in silence with Teddy that he noticed these things. The beauty in things. He didn't normally care for it, but now it was captivating. But what was more captivating was Teddy, who seemed to sparkle along with the snow.
James blinked to focus on something else before he started staring and Teddy would notice.
Teddy glanced at James and smiled lightly.
"The snow seems to be glittering."
James mumbled a response and nodded. It was still so hard to be alone with Teddy.
"I've got to meet up with Scorpius and Fred." He lied, looking at Teddy, whose hair turned a deep blue and he frowned at James.
"Oh. Okay. I'll see you on the train, I guess." Teddy sighed.
James nodded and hurried away.
Merlin, he'd been so stupid not to say that sooner. It was a very bad idea to stay that long alone with Teddy. James' heart raced. Teddy had looked so beautiful under the stars, almost glittering like the snow. Bloody hell...
He whipped around the corner, running towards the Gryffindor tower. He needed a break, relaxation time. Something to get his mind of the image of Teddy and how beautiful he was out there.
James could feel it, he was cracking. How long before he really broke, he didn't know. But the fact that Teddy was always around did not help.