The cememnt walls are five inches thick
And I've tried for years to break just a centimetre throughout
It's barely noticeable yet you saw it
And punished me for breaking it
It's dark and cold down here
And even when you come to hurt me
Your body warmth chills my veins
If anybody knew, they'd thrown you in prison
Because I can count more scars than numbers now
And you've broken my mental barrier, my own calm and peace
I don't know who I am living for now
And I''m numb waist down
From all your torture and unsentimental scars, no mercy
I'm numb in my head
From thinking of ways to escape this
You starve me, forced anorexia, to make me skinnier
And you're all that I have
That makes me sick
I don't have a piece of lint to be my friend, don't have a strip of fabric to call home
My family has given up and now I can't breathe
I've tried chocking myself but my subconscious doesn't listen to the sign
I've tried biting my arm off but I only got a few drop of blood
The blood tasted salty on my lips
It stained my perfect face, you said
And then you slapped me for it ironically
And slapped me other places
It's discouraging that there are no corners in this room for me to plant myself on
There is nothing I have anymore
I can't refuse to eat or refuse at all
I succumb to the fear of future pain
And do what you say---why can't you just let me go?
I"m numb everywhere, numb from my sanity, numb from your torture
I'm numb waist down
