If I die. ( jariana fanfiction ) Justin bieber and ariana grande

Chapter 1-moonlight.

Ariana P.O.V

Sadness.hurt.broken,is always what I feel everyday.Ever since my mom die in a car accident and she marry Joseph.everything turn to be more terrible.
Joseph my stepdad since my mom die in a car accident he become a monster to me,why?

Joseph always do physically thing to me.
Not only in out but inside too,what do I mean by not only out but inside too?he doesn't just hurt me by my body example kicking my legs,punch my stomach,hit my head with a bottle,push me to the table until the table broke.not only just that.he also hurt me inside,

Everytime he spoke to me,he doesn't even care what he say to me.example he say I'm a slut,I'm a bitch,I'm a ugly young girl.and that's not the worst.the worse is " maybe your mom right now is very happy that she is up there in heaven just like an angel,you know what? She is happy because she doesn't have to taking care of son of a monster,she doesn't have to pretend that she loves you,she doesn't have to look at your ugly body.you know if you are very different from your mom,right? Just imagine she is a angel and you are just a devil.
And your dad?maybe you never know her until now because he afraid if he or his friend know about you.because of you know,you ugly as fuck,slut,hoe,bitch.words even can't describe anymore."
He say that to me.

But sometimes I always wondering.
Was it true? All of this?
I keep thinking did I do something wrong?
I know I'm ugly but is that the real reason?
What did I do to deserve all of this.
Life is not a fairytale.
Life is not like a cinderella story,
That when cinderella live with her mean stepsister and stepmother,then she meet her fairygodmother then she change to be a more beautiful than before,she meet her prince and they live happily ever after.did live like that?
No.even I don't have someone that love me or even just like me.

I will never find someone that truly love me,
Just like in cinderella story.no never,
Everybody in school always tell me that " your so beautiful " "how can you be so pretty? " " I wish I can be beautiful as you "
I always hear that when I was in school.
Are they blind or something like that?
I'm not even pretty or beautiful even just one percent.
All the boys tried to keep flirting and making me be their girlfriend.but I just keep smile at them and just try to walk away,I'm afraid that they will  do physically thing to me just like my stepdad,I'm afraid that they will make me heartbroken just like all the boys would do.
I'm afraid because I'm pathetic

" daydreaming you bitch!"my stepdad say

"I-im n-not daydreaming"I say

"Oh really?then why are u keep staying in that position just like what idiot would do.oh wait,you are idiot I forgot!"my stepdad say

He grab a vase and he throw it in my head.
And that vase broke into million pieces.
My head feels just like I got hit by a car.
It's that bad because I always got hit by vase or bottle or anything else.
But I just keep silent.because if I spoke I will get more than that,I don't cry because I know he will using his mean words again to me.
And I don't want to be pathetic,
Even if I already knows that I'm more than pathetic.

"You're afraid huh? Well let's see this,will you be more afraid or not!"my stepdad say within a second he kicked my legs over and over.

"You like that you son of a bitch?"he said while punch my stomach.

With that I feel headache,i feel weak,I have blood all over my mouth that came out because he punch my stomach really hard.

"You're lucky because I have to go now" he says while walking out the door and leaving me alone in my room

I hear car noise and with that I know that he gone.maybe not forever but still even just for 5 hours I feel like I'm the happiest the person.
I took that chance to go outside and run to the park even I feel weak,my blood still in my mouth,I don't care,I'm just wanna really go there right now.
I see a lot of people in the car that staring at me with sympathic look but I just walk.

When I arrive at there,I go sit in the bench.
And I just cry in there like very loud,
I hug my knees and burried my face in there.
I look up and see how beautiful moonlight in the lonely night,the moonlight that shining bright in the darkest night.

" are u okay? " someone say

"Y-yeah" I say

I look at the person and I was shocked.
Isn't he Justin bieber? The biggest playboy in my school?

"God! Your bleeding,how?"he say taking a seat beside me

"I-i-im okay"I say

"No your not!"he say and that's make me backed away a little

"I-im I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you" he say with guilty in his eyes,Justin bieber the playboy can feel guilty but not with that he done to all the girls that he cheat with? Wow.

"N-no it's okay"

"Stop saying that"

"But I really am okay"

"Common let me clean you"

"No,I will just go home later"

"But it will get worse"

"No it won't"

"Fine but if I see that you like this again,I will take you to my house"

"O-okay"

"Why are u here alone?"

"I love it here"

"You are ariana,right?"

"Yeah"

"Can you please tommorow we meet at the library?"

"Wait,you go to the library?wow I'm impressed"

"I mean you know I'm not the reading book type,but I just go in there because it's quiet?"

"Oo,why do you want me to meet you there?"

"So we can be friends?"

"But-"

"No buts, I see you tommorow and don't forget to come,okay?" With that he leave me

"But- well he doesn't here anymore"I say and I got up and walking home

Maybe this time I will try to a friendship or even more.
I don't know.i just afraid if someone will broke my heart.but maybe I should try it.

PS: hey! I wrote this for 1 hour 30 minutes LoL! Well I hope you guys like this story and vote or comment because if you i see vote or comment I will continues this story!💙