Miss Princess No More

ஐ Miprinomo (4)

☑ Don't ever be scared of saying sorry. It doesn't always prove that you're wrong and they're right. It means you have class. 

I CAN CALL IT A DAY, A NOT SO VERY BAD ONE.

"For the tenth time Yuré, I'm good. I'll just wait for my driver to arrive." Driver my eyes, nose and lips. What a smooth lie. It's like waiting to snow in the Philippines. You'll die waiting Treya – waiting for nothing.

Surrendering on insisting to give me a lift, she sighs, "Fine. See you tomorrow then bestie." Does she really have to say 'bestie' at the end of her every sentence? And wait what? See me tomorrow she said?

"It's Saturday." I informed her.

"What? Can't I spend time with my bestie on weekend? Can't I do that?"

"I'm busy tomorrow."

"Be busy with me, I don't mind."

Knowing that she's a lively person and doing nothing might kill her, I give her a reason to not 'spend time' with me as she said, "You'll just get bored" but with this, she just shrugged.

"It's fun to get bored sometimes."

Gosh, oh my, what is she saying? Nonsense, Treya. She's saying nonsense - I answered myself on my mind.

"Go home, Yuré. I'm sure your family's more fun to be with." These words of mine made her face change in an expression I couldn't fathom. And before I even put words about it, she masked it again with that dashing smile of her. If I didn't notice what I saw, I'd be fooled by that.

Though at what she said next, I was dumbfounded. "But you're a family to me, Treya." Yes, at least no bestie at the end – was the only thought running through my mind – probably, to ease the shock. Did it work? No.

Referring me as her best friend is a given already, but calling me a family? I don't know what to say to that. I always condemn her about calling me bestie 'coz I don't feel like I am to her ever since compare to her towards me (There I admit, I have a reason though don't judge me before knowing what that is) what more calling me a family? That was just...too much. There's a tiny part of me who's grateful – that I almost gave in. But the remaining larger part holding a poster saying – don't get too attach for one day if they leave you, it won't hurt too much...is winning, always have been. 

What I should do is to correct her.

And by correcting her, I mean snap at her."I'm no a family, Yuré. We're not blood-related or anything. I don't even consider you as my best friend so stop with the nonsense. I suggest you go home and be with your real family." Nice job, Treya. You deserve a crown in color peach for being a big time b*tch.

This will do good for the both of us - I remind myself as the guilt shoot over in my whole system. I saw Yuré's eyes sparkled with sadness and disappointment. Great! I'm losing the only person who stay with me even though I said don't. Really, I almost said sorry right away. But I couldn't. Because I know I shouldn't. The girl should know she'll get nowhere with me. I've been telling her that since the beginning. Why couldn't she understand the first time? Now, I have to do it everyday. 

I avert my eyes away from her lonesome face. After some mere seconds of silence between us, she spoke, my eyes return to her, "I'm sorry." She started, it almost sounded like a whisper. I almost blurt out that I should be the one to be sorry about as she continued, "This will not happen again. I promise." Then to my greatest surprise, she smiles at me. Smile! What the! After the mean things I've said? "See you on Monday then." With that, she left.