Beautiful Heart

4 Pains Past

She looked at him confused at what he just said. "Wha..what do you mean."

"Bell im not like other guys as im sure you figured but im not a normal teen either. What im trying to say is i have a very fucked up past."

She looked at him a lil more confused, "What do you mean, tell me you can trust me with anything."

Alex took a deep breath and looked into her dazzling eyes and muttered beneath his breath, "I was abused as a child Bell."

"What do you mean? How," she asked as she sat up and looked into the eyes of the boy she was falling on love with.

"When i was five my patents got a divorce and when i turned eight my mom remarried. I thought it was cool to have two dads but my step dad was an avid drunk. On nights he came home drunk mom was usually out late working. Well hed come into my room and hed beat me and after i was to weak to fight back he...hed take me," he explained at a whisper as she stared with utter shock and disbelief. "Mom soon found out about the beating but not about the other thing and divorced again and i got therapy for the physical abuse. Well when i turned eleven my father died of a heart attack an my mom remarried. This guys was very nice and he treated me and my mom nice. Well soon found out he was nice for a reason for he started giving me defense lessons in the basement on his days off while mom was working. Eventually it turned to him tying me up and taking me. When mom found out from my therapist a year later i was put into more therapy for i was in depression and would cut myself and try to end my life," he whispered as he lifted his gaze to see the horror and disbelief on her face. He quickly looked away as tears started running down his face, "Im sorry your the only person i told this too and i can see im just a pitiful idiotic monstrous fucked up man...im so sorry i shouldn't have told you," he cried.

But her response shocked him as she pulled him tight into her embrace and held him close to her to comfort him. "Alex ssshhh! You have the most beautiful wonderful heart I've ever known. Yes you have your flaws and problems that you should never have witnessed but it just made you stronger and the man you have become. The man who i love," she whispered as she looked down at him. He met her gaze with astonishment as tears streamed from his eyes and for the first time in his life he felt loved. Their lips met once again as she wiped away his tear and slowly drifted off to sleep. She watched him and played with his hair as he slept in her arms not believing that she just said that but now that it was out there she finally understood her own feelings. She was in love with this beautiful man.