Fragile Hearts

20th Jan 2018

Today my parents were fighting. That's not a new thing but I am so tired of it. When I see other parents smiling or talking nicely with each other and see my own, my heart literally sinks. It is like fighting is their new hobby or something. If they don't have something to fight on with each other, they end up either shutting up and pretending the other one doesn't exist or they fight with me. I am their second choice fighting mate.

They fight about pointless and random things. Small or big things it never matters with them. Here is one of the pointless random fights they have over such a silly thing:
"I can't cook food today" My mom says
"Why?" My dad asks
"I am not feeling well"
"Oh really? You are not? Stop pretending"
"I am not pretending"
"Sure"
"Are you making fun of me" My mom starts shouting.
"Answer me Asher!" My mom shouts again
They continue to shout and scream mean things at each other until one of them gets tired and shuts up.

I mean how am I supposed to grow up to be a peaceful person when my own parents shout at random silly things? I don't know.

I end up every time they shout listening to very loud music so that I won't hear what they are saying and stop all of my thoughts. However I end up crying silently, letting my tears stream down my face and leaving it fall on my shirt.

Now imagine this happening everyday. They now fight 24 hours, 7 days a week. They never take rest. The only time I remember seeing them as a couple was on their anniversary. I wish everyday was their anniversary.

I wish they would stop fighting. Please let them stop. I am tired of seeing my mom cry and my dad leaving the house.

I want all of this to stop. I want us a happy little family like everyone else. Not a you are worthless creatures family.

That's all for now. I need to check on what they are fighting on.

Bye,
Grace.