Kevin's Double Life (Book One) #Wattys2016

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Chapter Seven: She Reminds Me Of...

Beautiful

Ever felt like your body is in so much pain but you keep pushing yourself? Well that's what I had been for the past hour, sir had left a few minutes ago and now I'm in his gym that I found when I was cleaning the house from top to bottom.

I was so done with his insults when I didn't even know why he was treating me like this. Unfortunately for me I was paying for a debt my parents created and the guy won't even treat me decently. Like at least don't insult me and beat on me like I don't have some sort of feelings.

Sweating and my constant groans kept me going, I was thinking about losing weight but being able to defend myself somehow when sir ever thought of putting his hands on me again. Beating that girl last night just lifted a lot of weight off my shoulders and me taking out my frustrations on this punching bag made me less aggitated and annoyed.

I press play on the radio that was on its own desk and speakers of all sizes placed almost everywhere in this gym when
Pillowtalk by Zayn Malik started to play in the background and then I got into my feelings singing along with him.

'[Verse 1]
Climb on board
We'll go slow and high tempo
Light and dark
Hold me hard and mellow

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure
Nobody but you, 'body but me
'Body but us, bodies together
I love to hold you close, tonight and always
I love to wake up next to you
I love to hold you close, tonight and always
I love to wake up next to you

Running on the treadmill not missing a note or beat, as I increased the speed on the treadmill.

[Chorus]
So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
In the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking and fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone

More like a war zone on this side.

[Verse 2]
Pillow talk
My enemy, my ally
Prisoners
Then we're free, it's a thin line

[Pre-Chorus]
I'm seeing the pain, seeing the pleasure
Nobody but you, 'body but me
'Body but us, bodies together »
I love to hold you close, tonight and always
I love to wake up next to you

[Chorus]
So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
In the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking and fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone

I take a deep breath as I slow down the treadmill but keep it at a jogging pace.

[Bridge]
Paradise, paradise, paradise, paradise
War zone, war zone, war zone, war zone
Paradise, paradise, paradise, paradise
War zone, war zone, war zone, war zone

[Chorus]
So we'll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
In the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking and fighting on
It's our paradise and it's our war zone
It's our paradise and it's our war zone' I so love this song man.

Kevin

"How could let her do that to me?" Mia cries looking herself in the mirror "you ain't my girl so fight your own battles" I roll up a fat ass blunt, I feel her hard stare on the side of my face "if you planning on doin' sum' do it bitch" I inhale the smoke filling my lungs then exhale.

She picks up her stuff and leaves "delete my number!" I shrug "already done matter of fact I never had it saved in my shit" I mumble to myself, my mind was racing a hundred miles per second so I got up and put on my sweats, shirt and a pair of All Stars and went to visit someone I hadn't seen in a while.

Pulling into her drive way I sigh, I just hope its not awkward or that she still isn't mad at me. I walk into the house "MA!" once I let that out I felt a smack on my neck "ouch" I rub the spot when I see my mom looking up at me.
"Why you yelling? I was standing right there" she hisses "sorry ma" I hug her and kiss her cheek. We walk into the kitchen and she pats one of the bar stools so I could sit down "what's wrong with my baby?" she coos.

I shake my head "mama I hurt her" I could tell she was confused but she stood right there by my side "who baby tell
me?" "she reminds me of Summer so much I just couldn't take it" I didn't look up "Kevin you hit her didn't you?" worry laced in her tone.

I couldn't even answer her "Kevin you have to realise that just because Summer committed suicide doesn't mean you have the right to beat on other women that remind you of her in any type of way" she hugs me tightly "I know but I just miss her, she was lil sister ma I just thought maybe when I hit her she'd love
herself more... more than how Summer did" tears fell from my face.

The disappointment on her face just got to me "Kevin I know I didn't raise since you were three years old but I thought after you saw how Summer turned out you'd never do that to a woman... I'm so disappointed in you and I'm sure Summer is turning in her grave" I was speechless "you better go right by that girl, she
didn't do anything to you and you need to learn that beating a woman who is self conscious about her body isn't going to 'show' her the good side to herself but make it worse" I got up to get a bottle of water.

"What if Beautiful doesn't forgive me like ever?" I drink from the bottle "the least you can do is say sorry and mean it the rest will follow" I kiss my mom on the forehead and leave her house. I sat in my car for a few minutes before I drove to my house "hope she can forgive me" I pray.

I see her bent over on her knees maybe looking for something "uhm" I clear my throat, banging her head "ouch" she gets up rubbing the spot she had banged
on "can we talk?" she tilts her head "what?" I knew after this apology she would act difficult but I had to "look I just wanna say sorry about what I did to
you" she walks out the kitchen.

Following behind her "you apologised so what else do you want me to do?" she asks not turning "nothing we'll talk later" I excuse myself "why did you do it?" her soft voice stopped me.

I got some serious explaining to do...

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