February 16th 2015
I feel the bitterness of February hit me. I shiver as I pull my hoodie into my chest, I hug myself so I can keep warm. I'm walking to the beach, to sit and wonder about my life. Not many people are out tonight. I take my phone out to check the time 9:30pm. I see a few dog walkers here and there but that's it, the rest is bitter silence. I shudder at the thought. I arrive at the beach, the smell of the ocean hits my nose. I jump over the small wall and land on the sand. I take off my socks and my beat up converse then go for a walk. I feel the wet sand in between my toes and the smell the ocean lifts some weight off my shoulders for the first time in months I sigh, everything was fine 'a couple of months ago'. I find a spot near the ocean and I sit down. I check my phone to see if anyone has bothered to text or call but obviously not. It upsets me that no one cares about me. I know I'm a burden and I still wonder why I'm here. I put my phone back in my pocket and I close my eyes. I imagine my life a year ago. My life was alot better a year ago, everyone's life was better a year ago. Everything is my fault. I've caused everyone's pain and misery, I'm the reason.
"I'm the storm let it rain I've got eyes like a hurricane." I whisper
My name is Ashton Irwin. I'm 18 years old and I'm depressed and I hate myself for all the damaged I've caused. All I need is someone to save me but somehow I can't save myself.
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أدب الهواةAshton is a depressed teenager who blames himself for everything and Sophia well lets say she's the same but with twists and a terrible past. What happens when these two meet and change each other for the better and the worse ?
