My Maroon Heart

Figure It Out

"Babe, do you want to get up?" Was the first thing I heard when I woke up.
I slowly opened my eyes and saw Randy. I nodded and sat up, almost too tired to do that much. When he leaves, I change into an Adam Levine t shirt I had made with a plain white shirt and a picture I had found online, and a pair of light blue jeans. When I walked outside I saw the table was freshly made, and was covered with plates of fresh fruit and eggs. "It's eight in the morning, and you know damn well I don't have this stuff in my fridge, so where did you get all this?" I asked.
"Grocery store." He said between bites of fruit.
Oh my god, I love him....wait...do I? I think. When he gets up to clear his plate, he walks over to me. My breath almost stops, and when he kisses my cheek my heart almost stops. I can't love him I think. He has been my friend for five frickin years!
Keep it together Lila, he doesn't feel that way about you! Didn't Micah say he was gay? To this there was some truth, but the only time it was ever tested was when he was drunk. When I got up, I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth and do my makeup. How can I do this? How am I going to do this?
What about the road trip? You got this Lila! Like Adam Levine says, "Figure it out and let's go."
My friend. He is my friend, and is always only my friend. I walked out of my room to see that he had gone. A note lay on the table, but I felt to hurt to read it. I crumpled it up and threw it into my room. I almost cried right there, but I didn't want to. I couldn't act like this!
I am acting like a teenager that just got dumped. You can't have him Lila! Or...... Maybe he just doesn't get it? I'll go for it, that's what I'll do. What if he likes me back? What if he doesn't? Then you deal with it right? Yeah, that's what I'll do.....
I got off my butt and started blasting Maroon 5 through my speakers, realising how much this music helped her with her feelings. She lay on the couch and her eyes sort of fluttered. Within ten minutes she had passed out and started to dream.

Feelings feelings everywhere....
What do you think will happen?
Sorry for not updating so often!

-Annika