*Hey guys its been a long time but heres part 4*
Stigen rushed by me and out the door, before I could react he was gone. What was that? why was he here? what did he want? all these questions running through my head, but the biggest one, why did i care? He hurt me, that night, it was awful as i much as i wish i could just forget it i cant. I couldnt bear to think of it any longer. Shaking the thought from my head I walk back down to my room. I check my phone, it read "Three new voicemails" Three? from who? the phone read "Kenzie" Was something wrong?
"Emili its kenzie call me back its important"
"Emili seriously hurry up call me!"
"Emili please hurry"
What was wrong, quickly dialing Kenzie's number she picks up in seconds.
"Emili..."
"Kenzie is something wrong what happened??"
"Its Taylor amd Jacob..."
"My taylor??? Jacob Finseth???" There was a short pause before i hear her voice again.
"Yes"
"Kenzie what happened??""There was an accident, Jacob was driving, with Taylor, it was awful, there was a head-on collision, theyre both gone, im sorry this happened"
"Kenz this isnt funny"
"Em i wish i was kidding but im not"
Realization hit. The phone slipped from my hands. Tears rolled down my face.
No
This cant be possible
This couldnt happen
This couldnt be
At this point i couldnt stop the tears from pouring down my face. I collapse in my bed and sink my face into my pillow. What am i supposed to do now?
After more than an hour im out of tears and my mom comes down to check on me.
"Sweetie are you okay? did something happen?"
"Taylor...Jacob"
"What about them are they okay?"
"No, mom theyre gone, Kenzie told me a little more than an hour ago"
"Oh Em....Itll be ok sweetie, do you want to skip school tommorrow?"
"Can i?"
"Of course, now get some rest youll need it"
"Thanks mom"
"No problem"
I feel myself losing the battle of staying awake to the tight grasp of sleep. I drift off. Not wanting to face the world tommorrow, knowing ill have to. Sleep takes over me, well needed rest.Beep Beep Beep my alarm wakes me. Ugh. Morning. The thought of what had happended the previous days forces sadness over me. I dont want to leave my bes. I dont want to do anything. I dont even feel like eating. Taking my mom up on the not going to school thing i nuzzle back in my soft periwinkle sheets i try to fall back asleep but cant. I didnt cherrish the time i had left with him. I never let Jacob inas my friend. Thinking about these two men and ow i never even got to say goodbye. Tear fall down my cheeks. Why did this have to happen? What did i ever do? Why me? Why now?
Why dont i feel empty?
Why does this not hurt as bad as i thought it would, losing Taylor?
Am i a bad person?.........
*Thats ch 4 i know its short but it was difficult*
