I wish I was never friends with her

Chapter 5 :Hospital

I went home crying my eyes out , I was too scared to tell anyone it always makes it worse so I kept it to myself . I had pills I was taking for my panic attack , I couldn't take anymore I've lose everyone and everything to me so I wanted to not be here I've given up . I grabbed a glass of water downstairs when my mum walked in " love are you ok you seem hurt " " yeah I'm fine mum I just feel of my bike " " well if you ever need me I'm here " said my mum .

I went back to my room , I had the box of pills in my hand and a drink in the other , I was ready I was ready to go . I took 15 pills that night and i fainted I was took into hospital and I was taken to get my body fluids cleared , I woke up in the hospital bed and my Mum looked at me " why " she said " please promise me never again I can't lose you " with tears now falling down her eyes " not like I lost your dad " I took a deep breath " mum I'm sorry I shouldn't have " I said now also crying
" your phones been pinging all day long , your friends must all want you "
But the weird thing was I had no friends no one else liked me .

I opened my phone screen and cried in tears so bad there were so many horrible messages here's some :

19:36 : why isn't she dead yet???
19:38 : take stronger pills next time
19:38 : die bitch no one likes you
19:39: why don't you try bleach next time ??

I give up again I wish I died because nobody would care but my mum ❤️