She Still Calls me G

Chapter 8

April 25, 2016

Doctor says I'm getting better. So why don't I feel better? Mentally and emotionally? I've been known to keep my feelings and emotions to myself. When I was younger I used to cry all the damn time but when I moved to Atlanta as a kid I was on my own I had to suck that shit up. Kids picked on me cause I was tall and skinny I didn't need to be crying all the time to give them something else to talk about.

Now everyday someone is in my face asking how I feel and all they get from me is "I'm fine" and a weak ass smile. Saying how I really feel is not going to change anything I'm still going to feel the same later. My friends have really been there for me I made Trey and Joan make up the next day and of course Joan didn't remember a thing.

Brittany has been coming around a lot lately we've gone out on a few dates. She took me to see "The Same Difference" a great movie. I know she likes me but I'm not sure if I feel the same I just really enjoy the attention. Is that bad? Here I am chilling at her crib with all her friends but I was honestly tuning them out.

"Aye you good?"

"Yeah I'm cool." I gave her a fake smile.

"Come upstairs with me."

She grabbed my hand and led me upstairs. I was out of breath by the time we made it to the top but I didn't let it show. Not wanting her to get any ideas I decided to sit in the chair instead of on the bed.

"So what's up with you? Talk to me."

"It's nothing to talk about. I'm coolin I told you I was fine."

I was watching TV but I could see her taking pictures of me out the corner of my eye.

"Weirdo." I laughed and shook my head.

"You just look beautiful and I don't have no pictures of you."

"Whatever you say."

I wasn't trying to talk no more I just wanted to be somewhere else. I walked over and sat on her lap and started kissing on her neck I heard a moan escape.

"You sure you wanna do this?"

"Yea I'm sure."

She laid me down and pulled my pants off to her surprise I wasn't wearing underwear. I can see it in her eyes that she wanted me. She kissed down my body taking her time I couldn't take no more teasing so I pushed her head down between my legs.

"Mmmmm" Its been a minute since I had sex so I know it won't take long to get the first one off especially with the way she's flicking her tongue.

"Damn." My hands were tangled in her dreads, I could hear her slurping away my juices as I came.

I sat up but got pushed back down.

"What are you doing?"

"Giving you what you asked for. You not going nowhere just yet."

I laid back down and let her continue. 30 minutes and 6 orgasms later I got up and headed home. I couldn't take no more or I'd be spending the night which was not an option.

I got home showered and fixed myself something to eat. I went to my guest room to see if my best friend Kay was in there but she wasn't. She lives in Florida but she comes to spend the weekends with me so my mom can go home. She probably went to see her dad or something. Our friendship started back in middle school too we've been close since day 1. I will say this I have amazing friends not alot of people can say that.

My phone buzzed pulling me away from my thoughts. It was Jazz. Great.

"Hello"

"Wassup G."

"Nothing just chillin making me something to eat."

"You good? What's wrong?"

"Nothing just got some stuff on my mind that I don't want to talk about." She could always tell when something was wrong with me but lately I haven't told her.

"Talk to me don't hide from me."

Fine but I needed to smoke first. Yeah I still smoke believe it or not it actually helps but I live in a state where it's not legal so they won't tell you that but my sister is a nurse. I just only smoke papers which I hate.

"Why are you still here? Like honestly, are you here because I'm sick and I need you or cause you actually love me?"

"Both. I love you I can't leave you cause I know you need me. Yeah we had our problems but I'm here for you."

"You know every night I go to sleep I don't know if I'm going to wake up? I can't put you through that kind of pain so why don't you go be with your ex and forget about me." By now I was crying but she wanted to know how I felt.

"I wish you'd stop fuckin talking like that I'm not going nowhere so stop trying to push me away. You always do that now if I really left you'd be hurt."

"Whatever I don't want to talk nomore. Goodnight."

I hung up before she could say anything else. I finished my blunt when I heard Kay walk in and sat next to me on the patio.

"What's wrong babe?"

I told her about the conversation I just had with Jazz while she sparked up another blunt. She was the only one I actually told everything to. I felt like I needed to be strong for everybody but I always broke down around her. Of course she agreed with Jazz. Whose side was she on?

We sat there looking at the stars laughing and talking. I'm not sure if it's the weed or what but I was horny I tried not to look at her but I felt like her body was calling my name.

I walked over to where she was sitting and sat between her legs and started kissing between her thighs.

"Bri what are yo-"

"Ssshhh" I said pulling off her panties I actually thought she was going to protest more but she didn't.

"Can we at least go in the house somebody will see us."

"Na let them watch."

I flicked my tongue against her clit making her squirm around in the chair. She was trying to run but I had my arms locked around her legs. I could tell she was trying not to moan so the neighbors wouldn't hear but I got something for that. I slid my fingers in while still sucking on her clit and she moaned out louder than I expected. It wasn't long before she was squirting on my fingers.

I helped her up and we went inside and she went to take a shower. As loud as she was I'm pretty sure we gave my neighbors a show but nobody told their nosy asses to look. I took all my clothes off and climbed in bed. Kay came shortly after only wearing a T-shirt she climbed into bed andwe cuddled. To be honest this is how we always slept and before I knew it I was sleep.