Changes ≫ Simon Lewis

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Izzy left my room and I stayed in my room either crying, sleeping or writing. The next day, I didn't even feel like getting up but there was nothing I could do. I put my hair in a ponytail and excercised in my room. I then heard a knocking at the door and I knew it was Simon. My door was still locked and I could hear the person on the door trying to open it.

"Claire, it's Alec." Alec said with irritation in his voice. Alec? What's he doing here? It's really early. Is everything okay? I was walking towards the door then-

"It's also Alec, who Simon woke up to so he could get you to open the door" Alec said, I hid my laugh. Seriously? Alec must be very irritated since he would just snitch on Simon like that.

"ALEC!" Simon yelled, I jumped on my bed cracking up. I then stopped laughing and thought for a minute. I then heard the door make a strange sound as if someone was leaning on it.

"Listen," Simon said "I know your probably not feeling well for whatever reason. I know whatever it is, I might have something to do with it". Of course you do. You have everything to do with it

"I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I haven't quite figured it out yet but I'm pretty sure it's something in your diary. Your prety protective over that thing." He paused "I hope your feeling well since Isabelle told me you were feeling very sick. Which is weird since Shadowhunters don't get sick that easy. I mean you were perfectly fine yesterday but I guess things change."

I guess things do change, Simon. One minute your stressed out and the next minute your lips are on top of Clary's. I bawled up into a ball on my bed not speaking, I felt like I was fixing a jigsaw puzzle but I was missing a piece. Just one piece.

"I know it could be a 50/50 chance your earing me out since you wake up early but you can also be sleeping." He said "I'm probably talking to myself like a crazy person but I would do anything for you."

I wanted to laugh again but you would do a lot of things for different people. What is going on with me? I'm here trying to help Simon out of his funk. Not trying to fall in love with him. Apart of me was hoping that my old feelings for him wouldn't come back but I guess they already did.

I wish I could shake them off and throw on a fake smile. That's the problem. I can't. I wish I had good acting skills but I can'. My dad always said he hated those words. I can't. He always believed I could and the only thing holding me back was my heart. My mind believes I can but my heart believes I can't.

That's another problem. Miscommunication between the mind and the heart. The mind thinks logically while the heart thinks emotionally. If they don't think together to dresm team breaks down. Logically, I should forget about my romance love life about Simon and just help him. Emotionally, how in the world could I forget about Simon lewis.