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Sam
"Valeria? Do you think if my dad found out that he was going to be a grandpa he would be happy?" I asked.

Valeria and I were both at babies r us looking at clothes, bottles, etc.

"I'm pretty sure that he will be shocked but happy. He will be a grandpa I mean he does have another family." Valeria sighed.

Valeria knows about my father just as much as I do. We both hated the fact that he left my mom for another women because she got pregnant. Sad because my mom got pregnant with my sister. Also his daughter and he got his now wife pregnant with a son. He doesn't want to be apart of our family since he thinks that his other family is better.

Valeria met him once. It wasn't the best encounter. She scared him, but he scared her back. I didn't see her for a week till she came back and apologized. Then my dad left a year later after my mom found out she was pregnant.

Valeria was the only one I wanted to be with at the time. I didn't want to be with anyone else but her. I didn't even want to be with my own mother. I still feel like complete shit since that day. I just never told her that I still feel that way.

"Ooh! Look at this one! Daddy's little puta!" Valeria shouted showing me the r rated baby shirt.

"Val the fucking hell? Who would make this?" I laughed holding it up.

"A person that takes humor to a baby level." Valeria smirked.

I rolled my eyes before placing the shirt back on its hook and on the shelf. I then continued to walk through the store and find different baby stuff that interested me.

"So? Do you want a baby shower? And if so when do you want it?" Valeria asked.

I sighed shaking my head. I really don't want to have someone throw me something that still makes me freak out. I still highly doubt that I am ready for this baby. Diel is ready but me, not so much. He already has two jobs and a apartment.

Me just school and I'm waiting for the person to accept me to work at the store that I want to work at.

"Valeria I really don't want one. I want to make sure that I am 100% okay with this baby thing. I still don't know if I could bring it in myself to keep it. I'm just a teenager. Also Diel is an adult and yet he still sometimes acts like a kid himself. I don't know if we both are even ready for this." I sighed.

I heard Valeria sigh also then smiled holding up another cute baby outfit. I sighed grabbing it and placing it back on the rack.
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I laid in bed staring at the ceiling fan as it turned at a slow pace. Fans probably live an easy life. All they have to do is spin in circles and not have a care in the world. I have to struggle on whether or not if I want to keep this baby. Why does this have to be so fucking hard on me!?

I sighed trying to hold back the slowly forming tears. I just wasn't strong enough and let them go freely down my face. I sat up trying to wipe the tears from my eyes. I gave up letting out a chocked sob. I fell on my side hugging my pillow to my chest crying into it.

"Honey? Oh Sam!" I heard my mom run into my room.

She pulled me to her chest running her hands through my hair while I cried into her chest. She doesn't even know what I'm crying about yet she still is comforting me. This is one thing that I don't understand about mothers. They always know how to comfort you even when they don't even know whats wrong with you. This is probably one of the things I wont be able to do for my child in the future.

That just got me crying harder into my moms chest. After a while I had finally calmed down enough to have her talk while I just silently listened to her.

"Do you want to tell me whats wrong? Or do you want me to take a wild guess?" My mom asked.

I held up my hand holding a two for wild guess. I didn't really feel like talking at the moment.

"Okay. You don't think that your ready for this baby." My mom smiled.

I nodded into her chest sniffling a bit.

"Don't worry. Sweetie, if your not ready no one is forcing you to keep this baby. But you do have to tell Diel that your not ready. He's working three jobs for you and this baby. I don't think its really necessary for him to be working so much if he isn't going to be having a third mouth to feed." My mom took her thumbs rubbing the tears from my face.
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The next day was normal for me. Except one thing. My mom came into my room before I left for school handing me a pamphlet. I smiled going to Diel's car and leaving for school. I slightly opened my binder seeing what she gave me. The pamphlet was an open and non open adoption.

I quickly hid it from Diel's view. Then got out the car leaving to class without a kiss goodbye. I knew that probably hurt him but I just can't face him right now. I feel so guilty for making him work so hard if we might not keep this baby. I walked to class getting there early and began to read the pamphlet.

I didn't even notice the bell ringing till the teacher came to my desk handing me a test and taking my pamphlet away. I sighed getting on with the class till I finished my test. I then took a short nap waiting for the bell to ring again. Once it did I went to my teacher asking for my pamphlet back to which she just handed it to me along with a note. I sighed rolling my eyes.

I hate it when teachers think they can help a student when they originally cant.

KJ: Hello my lovely people and lovely readers and writers! Sorry for the late update! Monday was the start of my last week of summer school. So yeah, all I have to do is finished first semester of math then I can move onto my sophmore year! Although I will still have to redo 2nd semester math because I didn't finish that but I still will be smarter than I was in math than last year.

So question of the chapter... Should Sam get the courage to tell Diel that he might not want the baby?!

Like for yes, comment for no or other suggestions. Also if you are a fan of my bta book, I hops you all read my last chapter on there. I mean it, I will not post another chapter on there till I get my stars on there. So that give me time to post chapter for the other two books that I am working on.
Love you all, have a good night, morning, or afternoon.