Different Shades Of Blue *AmazingPhil fan fic* *Completed*

Chapter Fourteen: Every things alright, I think..

This whole chapter is in Alexis's POV OoOooOoooOoO (sorry..)

I was making my way down the hall to Dan's room, i know its late and he will be sleeping, maybe i can run back and do it tomorrow?

No i can't, if i don't do it now i never will, i have to stop running, like i ran from everything else.

I ran from the only family i ever had

I ran from my problems, but at the same time ran closer to them

I ran from my past, trying to pretend it never happened, when it did.

I ran from everything, everyone and i wont do it again, because i care about Dan, more than i would like to explain to him.

I stand at the door and knock, i hear a "yeah?" from inside so i walk in, he looked like he was about to go to bed, i got here just in time, i don't know if that's a good or bad thing..

"Alexis? what are you doing here?"

Its now or never Alexis

I sat on the bed across form him, he looked a me confused, god i can't do this.

"We talk a lot, about really stupid things like games and music and are fear of butterfly's, you know a lot about me, but not everything, not why i'm here, what i have done, not about all my lies, do you want me to tell you? because if i do, you wont see me the same."

he took my hands "Tell me, i wont judge you, i promise"

"Well i grew up in a house with a mum, dad and the most amazing big brother in the world, his name is Owen or to his friends Jack, and we are really close, like best friends. My parents hated me, there is no other way to say it they did, all the time they would call me a freak, not good enough, fat, worthless and so much more, it was horrible,they would hit me too, but i just tried to ignore it.

I found as i got older it was a lot easier to ignore it when i was little, as i got older and stress and lots of other stuff came around, i was worse and i believe all the things they said, Owen always tried to tell me it was lies and i was a amazing person, but after a while i stopped believing him.

I starting cutting, thought i deserved it, i still think that, and it made it better, it made the pain go away and every time it came back i would cut it away again, i just wanted the pain to go away.Owen moved out when i was 14 and i was left alone for 2 years in a house all by myself with parents who hated and hit me, so i cut more and it helped more.

One night i freaked the fuck out, i was so tired of them that i got all my stuff and left, they told me not to come back, i never planed on it anyway. I went to Owen and he took me in with open arms, so by the time i was 15, he was my legal guardian, i was free.

Well not really, the cutting got worse, the voices in my head saying that i deserved it were louder than the ones saying different. Owen found out about it and i felt my world end, he was so upset and tried so hard to help, and i was ruining his life, i did not want that.

So i told him to send me here, that i would get better stop cutting, he did not want to, he wanted to help me, he but let me go. so i came here and found you and Phil and all the others, i had friends, ones that i did not deserve because i am a lier.

I never stopped cutting, i lied when you asked me, Phil lied when he said he did not know, i made him lie to, I'm so sorry, sorry for the lies, i should of told you i knew you would look at me different and i could not face that.

All the lies i made, all the things hid, were because i love you Dan, because you saw me for who i was and not what i seem to be, I'm sorry"

I started to get up, i wanted to run and hide, he was going to hate me now, i was at the door when i felt a hand turn me around, i was made to look at Dan with tears running down his face and it was all my fault.

"I'm so sorry.." i whispered

"Alexis, you don't need to be sorry, you lied because you were scared, don't we all get scared!? I'm sorry about what happened to you, you never deserved it, you a amazing, lovely, person and you deserve to be happy. I don't care that you lied, i care that you felt the need to, that you're in pain, and i don't want you to be in pain because i love you too!"

"You-you love me back?"

"Yes! how did you not guess!?"

"I- you never-"

He just wrapped his arms around me and gave me a hug, i had never felt loved like this before, it felt really nice, after a while we pulled away and he leaned in a gave me a small kiss.

That was my first kiss

like ever

in my whole 17 years or being alive

it was worth the wait

i must of looked shocked and been blushing or something because Dan started to laugh.

"Oh my god, was that your first kiss??"

"what! no i-"

"Oh my god it was awww, that so cute"

I blush again, oh my god stop blushing!

"It's not cute.."

"yes it is aw"

"Dannn"

"I'm sorry, how was it then?"

"it was with you so amazing"

he hugged me again and because he was taller than me he kissed the top of my head

"your so cute, i love you"

"I love you to"

I never felt so happy in my whole life.

maybe things will be okay now.

But that is a lot to hope for..

aw how nice, for now :)

-Sparrow