Trusting Dimensions

Another Soul

Crrrreeeeeeeaaaaaak...

SLAM!

"Is somebody in here?"

The voice sounded indistinct and muffled through the sink's cabinet doors. As foot steps grew nearer, I kinda became uneasy of this choice. I sat there and listened as the faucets were turned and the other girl washed her hands above my head. Something ice cold ran over my shoulder and I burst out of the cabinets terrified, knocking the other girl off balance.

"What the- get off of me you freakish gi- boy..?"

...

Both of us were stunned, staring at each other in utter confusion contemplating what to do. I was still soaking wet from running in the rain and I guess I looked like a pervy boy with my short, wet, darkish brown hair slapped to my face with bangs covering half of it. I thought for sure that my chubby cheeks would give it away though.

As the long silence seemed to drape over us, I didn't even notice that I was sitting in a growing puddle of ice cold water. It's the least of my worries at the moment since I was now sitting across from this other girl. Watching her push herself up in horror, using the wall as support. I slowly stood up to reveal my drenched skin-tight pants. I was hoping my clothes would make her realize that I was actually a girl, but my flat chestedness didn't help. I was about to break down, I was scared and cold and my anxiety was overwhelming me.

"Ugh," I grunted,"this is just perfect.." It's at this moment that the other girl noticed my puffy, bloodshot eyes in the light. Gesturing a gym towel towards me, the girl finally built up the courage to speak for herself. I thought she was naked so I shut my eyes and looked away and then I felt it.

Something warm on my right cheek. As it creeped down though, it's trail went cold too and then I realized it was a tear and freaked out. I choked back a sob and was gonna try to run.

Why are you so stupid? I can't believe you're actually crying! What's wrong with you? Ugh. You're disgusting.

My conscious was always rude. I started hating myself years ago after my so-called friends and both sides of my families began to verbally abuse me. It sucked. All I could think about was how stupid I was and how much of a mistake I am and all these horrible thoughts came pouring in like the rain outside. I didn't want to believe them, and most of these thoughts I didn't believe, but I couldn't stop dissing myself and pointing out my flaws. I hated myself but didn't want to believe it. I knew I was a good person at heart. I could be so nice but in these moments I was bitter cruel to everyone, including myself. Then she interrupted me and I blacked out.

No, stop. Stop it. She's nice. Don't hurt her. For hell's sake, stop it.

"Uh... a- are you... ok?"

Don't hurt her.

Indecisively, I accepted the girl's offer and took the towel. I wanted to return the favor by helping her gain her balance, but I still didn't know if she was naked or not so I looked at the ground and thankfully saw her towel wrapped around her in the corner of my eye. It was so hard for me to be nice with that bitter side of mine trying to come out and hurt everything.

Talk. You're fine, don't worry. It's ok Leon. You're ok. Now, talk.

"I'm fine,"I said softly with a shaky voice. My conscious wasn't always rude though, sometimes I can convince myself that I'm ok and stuff. I lifted my gaze to the other girl. "Sorry about... running into you and everything. I guess I'm just a little edgy at the moment." My voice doesn't really sound like a guy's anyways so I'm pretty sure by now she's realized I'm female too.

Don't hurt her.

"It's ok, I'm sorry about calling you a boy. Or.. er.. are you, ya know, a boy?"

Are you freakin kidding me? "Are you a boy?" I mimicked in my head. What the hell?! Obviously I'm a girl!

The girl started drying herself off and I suddenly realized where I was and kind of started panicking. My conscious was screaming at me.

Get out. For hell's sake. GET. OUT.

Slowly approaching me, the girl reached in my direction.

Don't.

Quickly reacting, I grabbed the girl's right wrist with my right hand and twisted her arm behind her back. I was behind her now and my left arm was around her neck.

Stop.

"What're you trying to do?" I started getting caught in the heated moment.

STOP IT.

I couldn't stop. I couldn't control what I was saying. I was stuck. I was a robot running off of negativity gears and I was endangering everyone, even myself. I blacked out, I was still blacked out and just kept on talking.

"Feel me up? I'm a girl, ok? Leave me alone, I was perfectly fine until you turned on that stupid faucet!"

It wasn't even her fault. You were already wet from the rain Leon. Calm down. It's your fault, it's only your fault. Stop blaming others for your own mistakes.

I couldn't shut up. I couldn't help it. I wanted to bash my skull with a bullet from a shot gun to stop these voices. I can't stand these voices. I was a mess. I was cold. I was wet. There was a stranger reaching towards me. I don't like being touched. I wanted to run. I wanted to cry. I wanted to hide away and never come back. I wanted to die. I knew I wouldn't though.

Stop it Leon. Leave. Her. Alone.

"Now I'm soaking wet because of you!" I couldn't snap back to reality. I was stuck in the moment. Struggling to get free from my grip, the girl twisted her body and flipped me over her back. I was startled by the other girl's strength and I turned to lay on my side wheezing.

"You really are a freak, aren't you?" The girl looked down on me,"I was just reaching for my bag, then you went all haywire and tried to pin me! You don't even know me and you automatically think I'm a perv." The girl seemed furious with her pupils growing small and I couldn't breathe, much less even speak. I wanted to tell her that I was sorry, I wanted to say that I didn't mean to. I wanted to explain to her that I have trust issues and I jump to conclusions and thought she was going to touch me, but I couldn't. Instead she was still talking and I was laying there on the cold wet floor curled in a fetal position with my arms wrapped around myself. I had a pained face on and was focusing on not crying but the tears slowly streamed down my face.

"I was trying to help you and you just pushed me away. I understand why people like you are the way you are, but that doesn't give you a right to be a jerk to others." She turned to grab her bag and headed for the changing room.

People like me? What does she even mean? She doesn't even know me!

"Oh, and word of advice, don't try to pin opponents who're bigger than you. You won't win," she snarked and let the door shut behind her by itself. I turned fast to get one last glance of the girl's aura and then carefully sat up.

Hers is different... Its.. It feels...
different...

I kind of wondered what was so odd about her when I was holding her arm behind her back. I got distracted and then she flipped me.

Stop lying to yourself. You know you didn't stand a chance against her.

"Shut up," I muttered under my breath.

Her soul... the way she thought... Just her state of mind in general.. it's amazing. Not like mine, but not like the others, its just different. Maybe I'll see her again some day...

I got up and felt a sharp pain just below the ball of my back. It was my tailbone. It hurt so badly. I tried walking but the pain was almost unbearable for me. I've been through worse, but it's been a while since the last time I've been hurt by another living human. I guess this dimension just thought it was time for me to learn another lesson. After all, everything happens for a reason.