Leon, Chel, Trust, and Ada are all different parts of me. I have other personalities other than just them, the differences scare me though. Leon's character was based off of the main me that remembers the most bits and pieces of each personality change. For me, when my head "slips", I do not usually remember what happens in whatever state of mind I had slipped into. Chel is my blunt, defensive personality put into character. I've had 2 personalities for as long as I can remember. Some people who don't seem to understand fucking puss me off and I want to kill them and cause a fucking massacre with their stupidity being the lethal cause of it all, but I can't. Chel acts like they know everything apparently, according to people who've met them. Trust is a demon that had not gotten a chance to appear in this book yet, same goes for Ada. Trust and Ada used to "possess me years ago and I'd be them. They were very very real to me and I was terrified. I haven't actually "seen" these creatures or these dimensions/different worlds of mine in my head for a few years now. I've never once seen the world's in my dreams before, or the "demons" either. I do not like to consider them demons, they were just creatures from a world I supposedly made up inside my head as an attempt to cope with some traumatizing stuff. All of this stuff happened subconsciously, so I wasn't necessarily aware of it was getting better or worse. Sooner or later they vanished after a few years and I found myself missing them. I told a few people about them but they thought it was magic and such. I found it hard to believe, but in some ways I could understand their point of view. I still get paranoid from time to time, I can't stand being home alone for long amounts of time. Especially when it's dark outside and inside. My personalities are always in disagreement but I have 3 majors.
1- the floater
:it's me. I float through each phase/personality/state of mind and keep very small portions of memories for the next day
2 and 3 are even-
:the blunt one-
Always defensive 24/7, best behavior/ OCD, rude, wise, quiet
:the bubbly one-
Seductive, is actually terrified of sexual activities and wants no part in them, outgoing, talkative
I'm tired and my meds are kicking in now, goodnight.
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Trusting Dimensions
Adventure*********** I will not finish this book because I myself am schizophrenic and at first I thought writing this story could help me, buuuuut in a way it's just made my problems worse. I have DID, and PTSD. You can still read the story if you want but...
