Forbidden Hearts Jerrie

Chapter 20

It was a cloudy day with winds that could blow you away. Not a single soul in site as the cold winds showing there aggression towards the people that walked by. From a far a certain blonde sat on a bench watching the day go by. Watching all these lives she didn't know pass her, wondering what there lives were like if they are happy, sad or even excited. Sipping her hot chocolate she quietly thought of her small little world and what has happened to her. Thinking of all the things that have happened Perrie slowly closes her eyes letting it sink in that she is no longer the girl she used to be, that she is no longer that girl that would do anything for her best friend. But now, now she is the girl that will rip you apart if you say one wrong word to her. At that is the girl she is going to be, there is no going back not anymore.

Keeping her eyes shut she slowly takes in the noises surrounding her. Slowly taking her breaths until she could calm herself. Trying to capture ever noise without looking and looking without listening. Turning the events in her life around seemed like a possibility when she came back but that no longer seemed like and options to her. She didn't want to go back she didn't want that life anymore. She wanted a world were she belonged a world were she felt loved. Coming back didn't seem like a good idea and her instincts were right. She didn't want this place this place didn't feel like home it felt like failure to her. She lost everything here and there was no return. No return whatsoever. Small steps were the key. Standing up the blonde made her way to the nearest bin to dispose of her cup that was now empty

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"ooo it's cold" Jesy spoke running back under the blankets the three girls had laid down ready to start the next movie that was in the set they have readied for the evening. The girls were having a girls night in just enjoying there Saturday. The sudden change of weather had caused the girls to change there plans and had decided to stay in.

"I wish we invited Perrie" Jesy spoke letting her inner thoughts out. This angered Jade. The past few weeks the brunette had been thinking, and thinking a lot. All she could ever think of was Perrie. Then all of sudden the thoughts of Perrie just angered her then all she started to think was why, why was she only thinking of her when the blonde never thought of her. So from then on she had decided not to give any flying fucks about the blonde and from then on she decided the only way to stop this is to forget the past and move forward. She decided not to look back.

"why does everything have to involve her" Jade seethed in anger. Not waiting for a response Jade started the movie they had been set to watch. The three girls sat in silence after that. The two being afraid to muster up anything after the outburst of theyre friend.

"Girls we will be having guests over soon pack that up" Norma yelled from the kitchen.

"what who is coming" Jade was quick to reply not wanting anyone over.

"it's a surprise" was all her mother said before she started making meal for the arriving guest that were later scheduled to come. Not knowing who was coming did not sit well with Jade at all. Knowing nothing made her rage.

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The table was set Jade was dressed and Norma was impatiently waiting for the guests to arrive. It had been a little over an hour since the two girls had left, leaving mother and daughter to prepare for the guest in silence.

Nervous was the first feeling Jade had every minute that passes by. Getting Anxious was not something she was used to. But when the door bell rang her heart started to beat so fast it felt like it wanted out. She did not know why she was feeling like this all of a sudden. Never had she felt like this. It seemed like her heart was trying to tell her something.

Jade stayed upstairs while she heard the muffled voices downstairs, not daring to leave her room, well not in this state at least. The brunette didn't get to choose though and soon enough she was called down by her mother.

Exiting her room and making her way down did not help her poor heart slow it for some reason it felt like a hammer trying to break her ribs and escape. Once reaching the bottom of the stares she did not dare look at anyone but her mother.

" You've got to be kidding me" this was the last voice Jade had thought of hearing. Spining her around her suspensions were confirmed. In front of her stood the one person she so deeply loved and hated at the same time. Whenever she was around her she couldn't think straight.

"Nice to see you to" Jade replied the words spilling out her mouth with no control.

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All night all damn night Perrie was the only thing she had on her mind all damn night. Sitting across the table from her didn't help one single bit at all. She wasn't thinking straight, she didn't know what to think. Her mind was telling her one thing and her heart was saying another. Perrie was like an angel to her one second and a demon the other. She was like her heaven and hell, and that is what scared Jade deeply she didn't know where all these feelings came from.

"Jade dear why don't you and Perrie go up to your room and catch up" Jade froze. This was the last thing she wanted was to be alone with the one thing that set her straight road into a curve and her mind into mush. All weekend she had brought her self to hate the blonde but now she could not conjure the strength to even look at the girl.

Jade nodded and slowly rose from her chair, watching Perrie as she did not daring to look away, scared to even blink. She did not want to miss even the smallest reaction of Perrie's. It felt like a life time to Jade before she got a reaction out of Perrie and it was the first time she actually saw what the blonde was wearing. Perrie had gone for a natural looking have worn black boots with ripped skinny jeans with a white shirt and her signature leather jacket. Jade slowly started moving towards her room not daring to look back.

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"Do you think this was a good idea" Debbie said looking worriedly as both girls made there way to the younger girls room.

"I don't know but I hope it work" replied Debbie.

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Slowly stepping in Perrie could help but try and remember the last time she had been in here. It felt like a faint memory trying to charge it's way forward. Everything was like she had remembered. Her table stationed to the right of her room which then was followed by her bed with little distance from the table. To the wall on her right was her dressing table and on the furthest wall was the window and directly under her window was the small sitting bed.

"It hasn't changed much" the girl in front of her spoke looking nervously at her.

Smiling Perrie tilted her head and moved slowly toward the shorter girl, taking off her jacket and dropping it on the floor.

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Jade grew nervous at what Perrie was just doing she slowly started to move back until her leg hit her bed causing her to sit on her bed. Perrie was still smiling down at her. Perrie suddenly became so close to her that Jade had to tilt her head up to look at Perrie. Suddenly she felt a hand on her cheek and felt a thump slowly caressing her lips. Instinctively her lips parted. Jade couldn't move her body seemed to be having a mind of its own and allowed Perrie to do whatever she wanted to do with her. Suddenly her eyes travelled down to be in direct site of Perrie's belt.

Jade felt a warm breath near her ear causing her to shiver followed by nibbling on the top of her ear lop. Jade couldn't help but close her eyes and take in the pleasure. She didn't want it to stop and that is what scared her. Pulling back Perrie whispered into her ear " your my new toy to play with" and with that Perrie had smashed her lips roughly onto Jade's pushing her back and climbing onto of the girl while pulling the younger girls hands over her head. Pushing her tounge into Jade's mouth Perrie did not care for permission. All Perrie wanted to do was strip her bare and take her. But Perrie would wait she would have her fun first.

A/N
so here is another update. I know it was a long time but i got something up for you guys hope you guys enjoy it and please give me your thoughts on this book
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