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The next morning all I could think of was the mental and pretty traumatising dream I had.
How sad am I?
I am obsessing still over the guy I went to high school with!
After eventually dragging myself out of my bed, wandering over to the phone to flick through my missed notifications. My Facebook feed was jammed with things I didn't want to see. I am the exact age where everyone is getting married and having a life .
All the friends from collage with engagement rings, newborn babies and heart-eyed husbands looking at their wives as if they are all they have ever wanted in their lives. God I am lonely.
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Time ticked by but I wasn't paying much attention. Why should I? Life was not going the way I wanted it to. All I wanted was some handsome guy to stroll into my home, pick me up bridal style and carry me into the sunset, making me forget entirely about Josh. But that won't happen. I freaking love Joshua William Dun. At that thought, a feeling of happiness tingled inside me.
I imagined myself and Josh as the people in the Facebook photos, laughing with our 6 month old baby, just enjoying having each other.
Then reality kicked back in again like a slap round the face. I haven't seen him in years! How the hell am I even going to speak to him, even when i sat next to him in chemistry I couldn't even muster a single sentence without stammering like a freak, but hey thats what I am. He was never interested in making conversation and he probably will never be, he was always so busy, wanting to go play his drums, little did he know i was the one who voted for him 150 times at the talent show and who listened to him play at 6am but he was always too busy for me, and now he is busy on tour! He has his entire life sorted, he has Debbie , Tyler and Jenna. And look at me, lonely old Genma
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Yassss chapter two
This was writed by the gorgeous @Howell_aboutNo.
The both of us are writing this book
PEACE OUT FRENS
YOU ARE READING
Under The Mask Of Anxiety
FanfictionGemma has had a crush on Josh since high school, but josh never noticed her, she supports him in everything but he has no clue, for the past month she has the same dream about him, josh being killed by his blurry face. Thats is until, she meets him.
