The Virgin (Slow Updates)

I'm on a strict 'No Drew' day

I couldn't really think straight. My mind was clogged up with horrid thoughts on what my future would be like if it consisted of love. Something some could explain as beautiful and breathtaking only seemed false and unsatisfying.

"Cassidy? You good?" I looked up at Hayley. "Yeah, just thinking. I have to get going, I'll see you later."

Esme looked confused, "Cass, we just got here." I nodded my head. "I know, this is urgent." With that I walked away quickly. As horrible as it sounds, they were used to this behaviour from me. However, they never knew why I would leave so 'weirdly' as they like to describe it.

"Hey! Cassidy." I swiftly turned around, eyes narrowed. "What do you want?"

"Ouch, why the attitude?" I sighed and turned around to walk away. "I can't today Lawson. I'm on a strict 'No Drew' day." He chuckled. "That can't be healthy. Cue a serious case of withdrawal."

"Look Lawson, I've been going out of mind trying to rid myself of these horrific thoughts about my future. I really don't think my brain can handle Drew torment today." I continued walking away, Drew hot on my heels.

"Come on Cassidy, it can't be that bad." I scoffed. "Any thought about love is bad."

Drew grabbed my wrist to stop me from walking, "What is this Lawson? How do you magically show up everywhere I go? Are you stalking me?" He smirked. "You wish Deaton, but no. In case you haven't noticed, this town is pretty small. Even if I didn't want to see you, I probably still would."

I closed my eyes, "What do you want?"

I could feel Drew getting closer. "Open your eyes, Cass." Slowly I opened them, my breath hitching as I realized just how close he was. "I already told you, we're not doing this again." I whispered.

"I know, I'm not gonna kiss you Deaton. Even though both of us know that you really want me to." I stepped back and rolled my eyes. "Coming from the guy who practically begged me to kiss him yesterday." Drew tilted his head back, letting out a laugh.

"Keep dreaming Deaton." I smiled. "Believe me Lawson, You're never in my dreams."

"Denial is a serious thing, are you feeling okay?" Drew said putting the back of his hand against my forehead, checking my temperature. "If me dreaming about kissing you involves blood and you lying on your deathbed, then fine, I'll keep dreaming."

"Damn, I've always liked a girl with a good imagination." I smiled slightly. "I'm only asking you one more time Lawson, then I'm gone. What do you want?"

"The girls. They're pretty worried about you. Said you've been off." I shrugged. "It's normal."

Drew looked around then back at me. "Cassidy, you should talk to them. You may say it's normal but it doesn't feel normal to them. They're your best friends, sisters even. They're just concerned and if you don't want them to know, just reassure them."

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked. "How do you even know?"

The last thing I needed was my best friends gossiping about my business to Drew, or to anyone. "Like I said, they were worried." I nodded and waved my hand around. "I get that, but why did they send you of all people to talk to me?"

"I don't know, because I'm always around?" I looked at him, a smirk slowly forming on my face. "I knew it, you are stalking me."

He furrowed his eyebrows, "No Cass-" I set my hand on his shoulder. "It's fine Drew, we can get you some help for that."

"Cassidy, I'm not-"

"It's okay, I forgive you. It's a bit creepy but I wouldn't expect less from you." I turned around, holding back my laugh.

"Cassidy, I'm not stalking you." I turned around, walking backwards. "Denial is a serious thing." I mocked. "You should get that checked."

I swiftly turned around and walked away, a smile on my face. Who knew Drew Lawson was all I needed to get my mind off of the future.

I certainly didn't.

The rest of the walk home was peaceful. I didn't have a lot on my mind anymore and for that, I was grateful.

I loved when my mind was at peace but I hated when it was empty. I loved thinking, as weird as that may sound.

There were I lot of things that I would use the term 'love' for but that didn't apply to my significant other. Past relationships have failed due to this thought.

I've never fallen in love with a guy that I'm with and when they fall in love with me, I feel terrible.

How do you even responded to someone you don't love, saying they love you? I sighed and cleared the thoughts out of my mind as I reached my house.

I opened the door, "Mom?" I called out. "In the dining room!" She answered back.

I set my bag on the table beside the door and slipped my shoes off. I walked to the dining room to see my mom signing paperwork. "What's all of this?" I asked cautiously.

"Divorce papers." She spoke hesitantly. I nodded, I think it was time I get over the initial shock that my parents didnt want to be together. Who was i to force them to be unhappy?

"Did dad already signed them?" I asked waiting for her answer. "Yes." Was what she responded.

"Oh." This was kind of awkward. "Can I ask you a question?" I asked.

She chuckled but didn't look up from the papers in front of her, "Was that it?" I groaned.

"Mom, I'm serious." I said with a slight laugh in my voice. "What is it. Cassidy?"

"Are you going to see other people?" I probably sounded like a child to most people but I wanted to know. I have never known anyone to get a divorce. Everyone I knew didn't even make it to marriage.

Mom set her reading glasses on the table and looked up at me with a sigh. "If it makes you feel uncomfortable I won't bring anyone around."

I shook my head frantically, "No, no that's not it. I was just seeing if that's what people do when they get a divorce after starting a family. That's all." She smiled at me.

"Like I said, Cassidy. If it makes you feel uncomfortable I won't bring anyone around."

Truth be told, I probably would be uncomfortable. However I wasn't going to take my mom's happiness away. She believed in love and I had to respect that. Not everyone's beliefs were going to be the same as mine.

And although I knew that, apart of me wishes most people had this mindset. It would make things easier.

What about Drew?

I half knew what Drew thought about love. I know he's thought that he was in love before. Nina told me, that girl loves to gossip.

My strict 'No Drew' day could start tomorrow. He already invaded it today, might as well just put and end to it.

Call em nosey all you want but I wanted to ask a few questions.

And Drew would be the perfect person to answer them.

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