Everyone feels like I dont want to get close to anyone.... but thats not true... im just scared to, i feel as if im a fire and everyone around me is paper. i go near them... and they burn... and their dust flies away is the breeze. I lost so many people in my life already... i cry almost every Night just realising all of the terrible things I've done to people. Im never going to get close to anyone anymore.. Ill push everyone and everything away. I cant handle everything, to be honest... ive wanted to end my life... I only think of this to stop myself from doing it
~Who would I hurt if i killed myself?~
i realise its so many people. but in this world... its black or white, their isnt anything in between. no gray. hell, not even the tinest bit of color. but, if thats how the world is, ill see it that way. ill stay in the dark, be myself... a little fire trying not to burn anyone. im sorry... i cant feel anything anymore ill see you later, hopefully ill be put out by then, then you wont get hurt by me...
